#friday writing

[dominimoonbeam]

Good morning Friday! I'm doing a classic cafe Friday writing session this morning and it feels great. I've been crazy busy this month and getting ready for the move in a couple weeks. I definitely got distracted playing with shades from my House of Teeth universe this morning but am now working on the bodyguard au fic update!

And another Bite to Bruise chapter is coming out later today.

I hope you're doing well this week! <3

[cristate-tsuzuku]

Diary, 2021.05.14

Silence. It's always starting with silence. During the time I have spent with it, I discovered that there are different types of silence. There is the comforting one. The one that settles down after a long day filled up with noises you don't particulary enjoy or you do. It's a silence that we all need and desire from time to time. It's caressing the eardrums, it embrace us and takes off all the tiredness from the day. It's a silence we crave and love because it helps out our minds to rest, to calm down and we are able to continue the day. Then there is the unexpected one. That comes in moments when we don't really need it and want it but it's there. When you are least expecting, this silence comes in your mind, wiping away all the other noises. And you wonder what it's happening. Your thoughts are cut off, you see but you don't hear. You feel but you don't know what. I called it static silence. Because you can almost hear it inside your head. You can feel it in your body, the way it makes you slightly cold like during a chilly spring night when you forgot to take your jacket and the cold is barely licking at you but you feel it as little insects crawling up your skin. This silence might stay for a while but it also might go away as fast as it came. And then there is the deafening one. The one that rips your eardrums apart with how loud it is. The one that screams louder than any other noise. It doesn't use words. It doesn't come slowly. It explodes, like fireworks during the spring festivals. When you are sitting alone and lonely it comes and grips at your throat, paralyzing you, choking you. You can feel it squeezing the life out of you but you are powerless against it cause it's the silence we all fear the most. It's the one that laughs at us when we least need it. It's always there when we need noise and words. But this silence is taking it all away. Mercilessly. Cruely. You want to escape. You try to escape but nothing works. But you know that. You know that nothing can beat this silence. You know that there is nothing you can do. The only thing is to let it consume you. To let it flow in your body like a deadly poison and pray that you will survive. And at one point you even catch yourself loving this silence. Needing it. Wanting it. I have always wondered why. Why do I need it? Why do I crave for it? The answer is not that hard, isn't it? Because this is all you've got. Despite the horror, despite the timeless, airless dimension you find yourself throw into, you don't really try to escape it because at least there you feel something. This silence might go on for hours, days, weeks and yet you stay. Paralyzed and scared but you also relax. You let it take over because you fucking feel again. And you cling to it like a life saving boat. You grip it and don't let go because you know damn well that this is all you've got. Because otherwise you are alone. Completely and utterly alone.

[1-1-s1ay-2-2]

You win some, you lose some. What’s important is when you win some, be sure to tuck a bit away. Not just monetary things...but feelings, memories, thoughts...all that good stuff, too. Like a memory from a happy experience. Tuck a bit away someplace safe within you, and on those bad days, those gray days, grab it. Embrace what you tucked away for those rainy days. Your mind is a human computer, the greatest invention known to our world — you can program it to do anything you want it to!

[quickienewyork]

Good Morning,

I got some writing done right out of the gate this morning and it felt good. In the middle of the night I had one of those thoughts about what I had to do, and so I was able to just dive right into a new section for my memoir thing that filled in a lot of blanks. And since it was mostly about how and why I started to write erotica, it felt even better.

Otherwise, I’m tired and a bit slow today. Zelda is sleeping on the couch and the sun is warm, but none of that is inspiring me towards moving.

Yesterday I replaced my $20 bundle with a new version for hardcore fans. It includes all 38 of my books (including 32 Poems About my Penis and For the Love of Daddy) and has PDF versions of each one as well as epub and mobi. But it’s $50 because that’s reasonable, and it’s still half the price of buying them all retail. I don’t know if anyone will take me up on it, but there you go. I might try some super targeted Google ads to see if that works.

I don’t have any real wisdom today. My head is swirling with the mess of toxic masculinity we’re seeing in the news, my own struggles with men and masculinity, and random thoughts on friendships formed at different points in our lives. Maybe something clearer will come out of it, but until then I hope you’re doing alright and enjoying your day.

Xo

gny

[dominimoonbeam]

It's Friday! Last Friday of my staycation AND my birthday!

A Bite to Bruise post is going up later today and I am itching to get back into writing, editing, and sharing more stuff next week!

I hope you're having a good Friday! <3

[dominimoonbeam]

Happy Friday! We have autumn vibes here and I'm drinking chai. <3

Look at me getting shit done this week! Not only did I edit that steamy short (Ruby and the Wolf) but I formatted and published it!

I've got a tattoo au post and the rest of that David/Huxley amnesia first chapter done and am about halfway through the bodyguard au update right now.

Hope you're doing well in your timezone! <3

[dominimoonbeam]

Happy Friday!

Doing some writing before work. I hope you're doing well! <3 <3

[dominimoonbeam]

Happy Friday writing! I am in quite the Don't Run mood right now. Freya is just so epic and darkly funny. I really enjoy writing her. I've got 3 chapters done and lined up for sharing later this month AND she's finally having a soft moment with Ezra...

I've got a bunch of stuff still on this week's sticky note to play with today.

And another Bite to Bruise post coming out later today!

Hope you're having a good time zone! <3