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i do not use this site too mchc anymore but if u have given me notes on my art i want u to nkow i appreciate you

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hs epligogg

MEAT ->

john kin real! nah bt the hollow existential nature of meat rlly hit me nd fucked with my distorted sense of self. ive been sorta thinking of myself as a cordyceps controlling my dumb human fleshbody nd reading this made me think in 2nd person nd its an odd feel.

roxy+callie being nonbinary fill me with good juice. ive never read anything with a long established character going thru the same sort of gender stuff as me nd i loved it! happy for them.

i guess this is supposed to be dirk's absolute rock bottom? worst case? i like detective pony dirk more bc he still has hope+growth but this dirk has cast his humanity aside nd i dont like it lmao. muse callie at least is an observer nd keeps their narration plain? ish? tho i kno they're not objective see: jane+trickster mode

jade was fucked yet again!! no matter who's controlling the story they use jade as a plot pawn!! fuck. at least the pseudo-canon nature of it lets me decide to use fanon for jade's endgame. jade harley is doing her best to be fulfilled nd in my reality? sshes doing great.

lmao at dirk being so jealous of vriska being a keystone of hs that he just flings her into the void. Vriska did nothing wrong going full force as per usual!! nd fucking over rose? manipulating kanaya? Buddy. "you understood you were never good enough for her" l m a o. if u had the value of one of kanaya's little fingers.

just finishd meat gonna digest it for a while uh somehow jade hath been done even dirtier!! like even game over jade!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what the fuck just let her live. +glad terezi's moving forward.

iv been on twittr so i know how decisive the epilogue is nd i feel. full? hm. i have a vibe in my chest i cant describe. id say i wasnt expecting an open ended finisher but this is fucking homestuck of course i was lmao. this is the webcomic that showed the final battle through an unreliable narrator's claymotion artpiece. that started its epilogue with a big flashing sign saying "hey guess what this isnt in stone at all its on ao3 spiritually"

eventually im gonna reread it knowing dirk starts off in the reigns. see the cracks. everything about jake was a giant red flag in hindsight.

like homestuck has never had an objective narrator in its entire run. every single event is through some kind of lens. hussie started us out then caliborn took over then dirk filled the slot once LE's iron grip on the story was demolished. even the first few pages of johns room, had clowns all over the walls that we couldnt see cuz john couldnt. very interesting!! muse callie is probably as close as you could get to a reliable narrator for how passive they are but even then.

scratch constantly withholds information based on his discretion nd therefore his omniscience is moot here. hes serving LE nyway so. same agenda.

we'll never know exactly what happened in homestuck is what im saying here. all we can do is piece together the viewpoints of the various narrators nd the dialogue. the meat/candy divide is a great way to show that. was hoping itd bring the same gray areas as lanque and it Did Fam. if u come to the epilogue looking for concrete answers its not gonna happen bc thats not what homestuck is about.

tldr meat had a lot of food for thought nd cemented homestuck as having a purely subjective narrative which i appreciate as someone whos extremely existential.

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on the off chance tht anyone following me is interested

im doin a dev blog for my dream diary jm entry. herere

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neet

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if u felt so guilty hanging around me why did you. keep doing it.

whole friendship is now mentally reconfigured around that fact. feel very strung along. feel like shit, actually.

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vent post with no context because im locked in a cage match with my own thoughts by myself here im fucking full of popcorn kernels and im in a hot cage and the popcorn is popping oh my god its popping

what fuckin pisses me off the most. i guess. is that i deliberated, constantly. abt how to fix this friendship.

i thought the problem was just a natural drift apart. and that if i put in enough work, detail, sent that perfect hang out invitation.

that the friendship i got so much out of when i was 13-14 would rekindle. i was just missing some piece of the puzzle. to be actual friends again.

but that was just never going to happen. it was for absolutely nothing. #cucked again gamers!

im probably unfairly angry but uh i dont care. i keep myself apathetic about most things i deserve to be upset for once.

fucking confronted them directly last winter asking if they still wanted to be friends and get this shit back on track. nd they didnt cut it off there they just kept me on the fuckin wheel.

saying it was an introversion problem...........yet talked consistently with their real friends......didnt say a word about the glaring issue. or just /cut me off/ ufcking. free me. f r e e mmememe

had so many '''friends''' who constantly talked about their problems to the point where id go offline so i couldnt even talk to my actual friends. to also, the point where i can hardly make myself give a shit when someone vents to me anymore

nd now i have the opposite problem. fucknkgn