Sep 5, 2019
And I could not love
Cuz I could not love myself
Never good enough, no
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And I could not love
Cuz I could not love myself
Never good enough, no
Today was a pretty bad day
Here's hoping my mind quiets down for the next seven hours or so. Kind thoughts are always appreciated.
Why nap when you can get chewed out by your mother?
And with work in an hour...joy.
Someone is grilling onions in my building, and I really want a cheeseburger!!
If you need me, I’ll be making gifs :P
Finally situated back at home
I made a pit stop on my way back to campus at a Half Price Books store. Left with A Happening in Central Park and Barbra Streisand’s A Star is Born! I have the latter on now and so far so good :)
My queue has been running and will continue to run for most of today. I'm heading back to campus now and will be back on here once I'm settled. A massive thank you in advance for all your love and support ❤️ more thanks to come later, I promise! The Diva
I'm so tired of feeling like a burden, unto those I care for (or try to care for) and myself. I've said it countless times, but I can't help stressing it once more: I. Need. Help. I've finally made the decision that when I return to campus, I'm going to go to the counseling center on campus as a first step towards progress or recovery or whatever the hell it is that I need. I'm not entirely sure what's wrong; it might be one thing or a combo of things. Not knowing makes it daunting to seek help, which could explain why I've put it off for like two years now. Yeah, you read correctly, two years. But not knowing makes it even more important to seek help because then I can kinda put names on my emotions and mindset and start taking steps to finding some sort of peace of mind. That sounds like a far cry right now, peace, in the world and in my mind. There's so many thoughts running through my head right now, most of them bad. It's truly a miracle that I didn't end things when I was younger. I'm glad that I didn't. I may think about it, sometimes more often than I'd like, but I'd never act on such thoughts. I don't want to. God I feel like I'm rambling now. If you've read this far, I'm proud of you and I'm so sorry hah I'm heading back to campus tomorrow after the longest break of my life. Again, many thoughts are flooding my head right now. There's so much I want to say and share, but I don't know which thought to act upon first. It's almost 1am though, so I should really try and sleep. Keyword: try Leave me some love if you want. I could go for some hot chocolate right now. Maybe when I get home. Like campus home. But I consider that my home. It feels more like a home. Ugh mind, stop it! Home girl needs to sleep 😑 If only minds had a mute button. Tagging who I can think of off the top of my head, but y'all know I love all of you: @lokis-ice-queen @lokisgoldengoddess @munchkin80 @just-call-me-your-darling @einekleinecubasianfraulein @ophelia-tagloff @sarabeth72 @justahopeless-dreamer @chynna-is-not-here @ravhrafn @messrchase @greengirl888 et al