#fromlyrik

[deardnd]

Dear Gharol and Merc,

Le’ts not forget exsactly who it is you are talking to here.

itsh not like I would steal from Celebrother because I just hate him, It’s importntant that you knw I was gonna use the g odl to help us! I didn’ t want the mercneriary paying for my eyes, I am perfectly capeab capiable capable of taking care of myself.

Mostley.

So put your dissappointmenent disappointment away becaus I am not sory for what I did but its not like I wsn’tnt going to pay him back. Evenetuallelly. Someday.

So le’t s just all settle down for a minuete minute and rememember that I am still waiting for the mercin mersenar mercenary to even talk to me about what the fuck he’s even thinking, kissing me and then just

Not

Doing anything else

Other than talking to his brother and be fucking Aggraviating Aggravating 

Soooooooooo, your move, Merc.

I’m going to speep sleep.

Gharol, ich liebe dich und es tut mir leid. Sei nicht wütend, bitte.

- Cadence Lyrik Kid Child Thief Fuck-Up Stavden (becuse who am I even, really?)

P.S. When I wake up sober in the morninging, me, burn this if I know whats good for me, and you know I know you know I knowyouknow I do know what’s good for you. Me. Whatever.

[deardnd]

Dear Merc,

I’m going to have to talk to you, I know that.

I know I can’t keep dodging spending time alone together like this.

But how the hell do you go about telling someone that you’ve kissed “oh yeah hey as much as I really want to keep going and do the rest of the stuff I’m sure you want to do, I’m literally terrified that my bat, your brother, and my crazy magical grandmother are going to kill us so I guess I’d really rather not die just for some sex??? Haha and by the way I don’t know how to do anything sexual and I’m pretty sure I’m going to disappoint you, so there’s that too“

That’s not going to go well.

Ugh.

In a lot of ways I’m glad for Baradhor’s moronic insistence that he spend every waking moment with you, because then we can’t be alone.

He said that you being with us makes you happy, I wonder if he was lying.

Do I make you happy? Honestly?

You’ve never even told me why you’d even consider doing this sort of stuff with me. I mean, it didn’t take you all that long with the barmaiden we ran into way back at the start of this mess, so...

I guess that really means you’re not altogether that picky with who you share your body with, huh? 

Is it a right place/right time sort of thing with you? Whoever happens to fall onto your lap at any given moment?

I don’t know if that makes me more reassured or more worried. Both. 

Anyway. It’s fine. I’m fine. This is fine. I’ll just Talk to you tomorrow like usual.

- Cadence - Lyrik - Kid

[deardnd]

Dear Merc,

I am thrilled and also terrified for you.

You are Important To me.

You know that now, I guess.

You can’t hear the music like I can, and I know that now, I guess.

What must that be like? Emptiness? Silence? How do you… You couldn’t hear the sound of my– That explains a lot, I guess.

I guess I’ll show them to you. Maybe. I’d hate to think you’d never get to hear the universe’s songs.

Someday.

Maybe.

I’m so uncertain, this is stupid. I feel stupid. I don’t even know how to, what to, ugh this is DUMB I hate this.

You’re important to me and I Care about you. A lot.

And I don’t want anything bad to happen to you because of me. Because of her. But as scared as I am, I don’t think I want to let you go either.

Your chest is far too comfortable. I won’t repeat that if you ask.

But as I lay here and it’s dark and your eyes are closed and I’m Here I’m here I guess I’m here. You’re here. We’re here. You’re warm. I can hear your heartbeat. It’s faster than I thought it would be. I wonder if you’re asleep but I don’t want to ask. I don’t know that I could get up and walk away from this just to save you.

I’m selfish maybe but I This is way too nice.

I won’t tell you any of this aloud when you wake up. Maybe. I’m not sure. Let’s see what the future brings. I’m… I’m excited.

- Kid …you know what, - Lyrik

[deardnd]

Dear Fred,

WHAT DO YOU MEAN

WHAT DID YOU HEAR

WAS THAT YOU THROUGH THE WALL

NOTHING HAPPENED

I mean Like what would have even happened what the fuck would I have done Like There was the lap sitting And then I was on his chest And there was the fact that I mean like I guess something could have happened? Cuz he was Apparently Interested But I mean he was asleep when that happened so like he wasn't Not because I was on his lap I mean But I mean Like fuck Fred it’s not like he kissed me anyway

…. Anyway

The POINT IS

NOTHING HAPPENED SO STOP GIGGLING.

THINGS ARE FINE.

It’s fine.

Shut the fuck up, Frederick.

- Cadence

[deardnd]

Dear Merc,

I'm choking on it all. I'm scared. Cress understands, he can feel what I feel, but he is also just as scared. We are scared she will come after you. I will keep fighting because I don't know what else to do. I will keep running because I don't know what else to do. I will choke back my tears and my pleas for help because I don't know what else to do. I want to talk to you, but I have felt her in my blood. I know what she is, what she does. I can't let her do that to you, so I can't let you touch me. I can't let you become close to me. I am fighting this so much. The songs are chaos and cacophony, but they are beauty and inspiration too. Can you hear the music, Merc? Can you hear me? I'd reach out if I only felt I could, but for now I will scream my soul raw with the songs I hear in my head. I will fight until my arms give out. I will run until I can't anymore. I would drop dead before I would see her take my life and my new family away. I am sorry. I care about what happens to you. So I will keep you at arm's distance, no matter how much that hurts. I am sorry. I am so, so sorry. - your Kid

[deardnd]

And fuck You too,

You. You... creature. You beast to whom I cannot even give the name woman. I cannot even wrap my head around your existence. I feel like I'm in a nightmare, a nightmare in which everything I have ever feared or soothed myself into disbelieving has turned real. It's not so much your face, your presence, your eyes. It was the sound. As soon as you emerged, a wicked smile spread across your lips and I felt on fire from the inside out, a thousand crescendoing notes colliding into a cacophony of agony and it I knew, I *knew* it was you. You who contaminated us with your vile blood, you who caused so much pain to my grandfather, to my father, you are the one who let me touch the music we all hear daily. I suppose I should thank you but I want you dead. I can see every tear my grandfather ever shed for you dancing in your eyes. I have only ever seen my father scared when he saw your face. You are a disaster waiting to happen. You are a monster. You are a menace to my family and you can kill them all for all I care, but you will not take me. I will survive. I will find a way to fight back, I am going to become stronger than you could ever dream. I will drive you away from me and Cress with my own hands or I will die trying. I'm going to find you and I'm going to stop you. - The last Stavden to fall prey to your atrocities

[deardnd]

Fuck you,

Fuck you dad for coming out here, how dare you follow us? Didn't you think there's a reason I left? Didn't you ever consider that Cress & I left home because your song grates on my nerves like an untuned lute being scraped by shaky nails? How could you track me and Cress down, how dare you try to take this life away from me, I am a man and I am on my own and I can take care of my fucking self, how *dare* you come here and ruin my life how dare your song play here in this space with these beings. I left to get away from the harsh broken strings you called a family. I left to find my own place in this world. You will not take this from me. I will run until my fucking legs give out, I will fight until my arms are broken off instead of merely broken. I will find my own song somehow, somewhere, and it will be incredible and I will listen to it and it will be beautiful and you cannot take this from me you can't you can't you can't I won't let you. Fuck you You cannot make me be your son anymore. - Cadence

[deardnd]

Dear Bloodcrow Bloodline,

You. You fucking abomination of a child. You blight to my life, you corruption of all that I held dear. How dare you do this to me? And you, Celeborn, how could you? When could this have happened? Did you know? My broken bones those years ago, the agony of recovery, the now-scarred wounds I have since endured during my travels, those were *nothing*, mere pinpricks compared to this. I would sooner take a hundred Orcs crushing every bone than this one child crushing my heart. I've lost him regardless. If I speak I lose him to *you*. If I stay silent, I lose him to my anger and jealousy. Now I see the truth, and I should have known it all along. I was never meant to be happy. Goheno nin for what I must do now, Laerormen. Gi melin. - Lyrik Stavden (for my blood has less claim to the Bloodcrow name than yours)