A lil message for mor.
Dearest mor,
I cant describe my feelings now but all i can say is thankyou. Yes thankyou for the past 3 days, but i say my thanks to you for everything. Thankyou for always saying yes everytime i asked you something eventho sometimes you were like "kamu tuh kenapa sih?" "Bisa gak sih gak gitu ngomongnya" and i was like "iyaudah yaudah ya udah" then i would be pundung. I always cant say in words everythime u ask me "kenapa nina? Tell me how you feel". Belum lagi kalau kamu negur pake nada tinggi, padahal itu biasa aja buatmu tapi aku belum biasa, kadang aku langsung diem dan alihin muka kalo ketemu biar bisa nahan nangis, atau kalau telpon, aku bener2 akan diem dan jauhin hp kalo nangis. Itu suatu hal yang gak akan berubah di kamu, aku cuma harus terbiasa. Its okay mor. Thank you mor for always spending your short time with me. Thankyou for accompanying my night, like everynight. Thankyou for all the food treats, eventho to my friends. Thankyou mor. I cant describe all the things in here. Terima kasih sudah menerimaku dengan hangat, dengan masa lalu yang masih mengejar. Dont ever change. Be "Al" that i knew. An eastern guy who has a big interest to human, mind. A smart guy with a warm heart. You deserve the world, the kindness, and heart. Let me be your one and only, mor, eventho we cant have the future in our hands. Lets live and love for today. It really breaks my heart after i fell hard to you, knowing we would never be forever, but lets make everyday full of love, until the day come. I dont expect anything for our future. You know what to do, and so do i. Just be with me for now. Please always touch me and hold me. Thankyou mor.
P.s.
This past 1 week has been really hard for you, since my period is coming up soon and i cant control it. So, you did it. Im sorry for my every up and down mood. I hv warned you but it seems like, you dont pay a lot attention to it or maybe u dont care too much. I hope you're getting used to it, every months hehe
I love you with all my heart,
Xoxo
Your nina (an)