“What has gotten into you today?” Louis said lying down next to me after we were through.
That’s when I realized he had forgotten that today was our 1-year anniversary. I turned the light off and went straight to sleep not answering him.
In the morning I woke up with Louis still asleep next to me. I rolled over; 11:28 the clock read. I quietly got up and hopped in the shower with some slow/sad songs playing through the speakers. A few minutes later I heard the door open and Lou shuffled in. That’s when Moments decided to play. I turned off the shower when I heard him singing along to his own voice from the other side of the glass door.
"hands are silent, voices numb..."
That’s when I broke. I was mad at him for forgetting, but at that moment I wrapped the towel around my body and ran out of the shower crying into his arms.
“What? What is it Kenzie?” He said rubbing my exposed back.
I wasn’t going to break the silence just yet. Just because his voice made me melt didn't mean i wasn't strong enough to keep up the silence.
“You know I’ll be YOUR life YOUR voice YOUR reason to be MY love MY heart is breathing for this moment in time, I’ll find the words to say, before you leave me today.” He finished.
I looked up into his worried blue eyes through my own watery eyes.. That’s when I pushed him away and slammed the bathroom door shut. I ran into the closet and sat behind the door crying. I could not take it anymore. He had forgotten me and I had to stay silent until he remembered. I heard him calling my name but I didn’t answer.
“Bye love! Hope everything’s okay!” He yelled again leaving to go to work. Of course thats what he said. He is always that happy go-lucky sort of person.
Six hours later while I was on the couch catching up on the news, Louis walked in with a bag of Nando’s take out. He came and sat by me on the couch and leaned in to give me a kiss, but I quickly got up and went into the kitchen to explore the take-out.
“What?” He asked
Nothing. He was not going to break me. He followed me as I was getting plates out. I placed a spoonful of rice on my plate and walked to the table. When I sat down, I realised my present and letter from last night still sat on the table. I couldn’t keep my eyes off of it and I barely realised Louis had sat down beside me. He could tell I was upset and I was because he still hasn’t realised what he forgot.
“Can you please talk to me? What happened?” He pleaded. "You were in a perfect mood yesterday but then last night.. Please stop ignoring me."
With that I got up with my untouched food, put my plate by the sink and returned to the table. I looked at the small gift and letter and picked them up in my hand. I walked over to the trashcan and threw it down then walked back to the living room.
“Oh fuck” I heard Louis cuss. “KKENNZIEE…” He called.
A few minutes later he walked in.
“I am so sorry!”
Nothing
“Please, talk to me! I know I am the biggest idiot in the world.”
Nothing.
“Please! I will buy you all the Starbucks you want..”
Nothing.
"Sorry that was out of place, but please Mackenzie speak to me!"
He used my full name, nobody used my full name unless they meant business.
“ANYTHING! SCREAM, YELL, HIT ME, CRY, DO SOMETHING!” He pleaded
With that I got up and started for the door.
“Kenz please wait...”
I stopped in my tracks.
“Please… Just one sound, something.” I could hear his voice shaking and I knew he was about to break down because I wasn’t talking to him. He couldn’t stand the silent treatment.
That’s when I turned to him. The watery-blue eyed, stripe lovin' boy that I loved stood before me. That’s when I decided to talk.
“You. Hurt. Me” and with that I collapsed to the ground in tears.
Lou came after me holding me in his arms on the floor. I hugged him tightly whispering to him “Never let me go”
After staying on the ground for a few minutes while he let me cry my heart out, he wiped my tears away with his sleeve. We laughed in sync together looking at what a mess we were.
“You know,” I said brushing my sleeve to my runny nose “I heard make-up sex is always the best.”
With that we laughed again and he picked me up bridal style making our way back to the room.
