ok even if garcia & santos end up being toxic as a Relationship™️ smth i love abt queer ppl esp queer women is like even if the person is an asshole / it’s not Meant To Be whatever etc there’s a level of like safety & intimacy that has such quiet potential to be kind. not even romantic but just kind
like ok these two have been sleeping together for months canonically, they’re out, they’re not hiding it at work, they’re familiar enough with each other that we know garcia sleeps over often enough to have a toothbrush there. even if they’re not In Love, going to get married etc etc, they probably atp know at least some personal things about each other.
idk there’s something about the first time they just fall asleep together — they both worked doubles, whatever, they don’t really talk about it but it’s nice. the first time they have sex, even, yolanda seeing trinity’s scars & pausing, just for a moment, to check in. trinity rolls her eyes “they’re from a long time ago, i’m fine now.” & maybe she’s lying, yolanda doesn’t know, but getting trinity to say anything personal is like pulling teeth & she’s gorgeous beneath her, & wanting, & so is yolanda, she can’t fix anything in this moment anyway, &, well, they are scars. they were some time ago. but still yolanda runs a gentle hand — a knowing hand, a surgeon’s hand — over them. just for a moment, and then they kiss and it passes, a little of the pain.
& yolanda is a queer woman of color too! she’s ambitious & brilliant & funny. & there are also things, even if we don’t know them, that have hurt her as well. maybe she never tells santos, (& we’ll probably as viewers never know 99% of them). but they’ve been hanging out for months! maybe they talk about the scar on her ankle from when she broke it playing soccer in college. maybe they talk about how her abuela was kinder to her than her dad when she came out in med school, after everyone had been bothering her to find a husband except for her siblings who’ve known she’s gay forever. maybe they watch drag race together, or women’s basketball, or gbbo, when they can’t sleep bc they’re too wired from a crazy shift. maybe they send each other podcast recommendations & yolanda makes fun of trinity’s taste in music bc she is actually a rabid theater kid but it’s unfortunately quite charming. maybe they talk politics bc there’s a local election coming up & yolanda’s friend has canvassed for one of the progressive candidates running. idk!! there are so many moments between ‘we’re just fucking’ & ‘i’m in love with you let’s get married’ & who’s to say that trinity hasn’t talked to yolanda about gymnastics, or her mom, or how stressed she is about work.
anyway. there’s just a potential for care. for kindness. that’s not even girlfriends or love or whatever. maybe it will end painfully bc one of them has feelings & the other doesn’t lol but that doesn’t mean that there’s an absence of kindness. queerness is so special! it’s such a gift to feel safe with another person, in very particular ways