I think Owynn’s shadow should embody his absolute refusal to form real bonds with anyone. The closest thing he has to “people” are the villains he treats like disposable lackeys. His shadow, then, should reveal the violently repressed desire to love, while also exposing why he despises the very idea of loving in the first place: people have failed him, over and over again.
In my heart, Owynn is deeply romance-repulsed, yet he sometimes intrusively rationalizes his fixation on people he hates as a kind of “love,” even when he knows that isn’t true. He tells himself he should move on, and he’s haunted by the common narrative that thinking too much about someone must mean you like them, he becomes fixated on thoughts that make him feel wrong, dirty, or ashamed, compulsively circling what hurts the most. The idea that he could be “in love” with people who have irreversibly damaged him feels profoundly disgusting, and that very disgust is what keeps the thought returning, over and over, impossible to fully silence. His shadow is the warped fragment of his mind that still wants connection, clinging to a twisted nostalgia for a past that was never truly good and emotions he never had, blending any care or platonic affection he ever had into a general amalgamation of the idea of love itself. It also represents his buried desire for help. But none of this appears in a gentle or sympathetic way cuz that'd be lame. His shadow expresses these needs through something cruel and distorted and kinda nonsensical
The shadow’s logic is just: love must be reciprocated, and anyone who marks him should be marked just as deeply in return; and that someone who truly loves you would suffer in your place. So he forces suffering onto others in the name of “help,” as if pain shared becomes pain halved.
anyways uh tldr this is not a ship his shadow just says hes in love with anyone owynn has strong emotions against. Also his shadow saying hes in love with someone usually just means he's going to fucking kill them so
one day ill be able to explain whatever the hell in a way that makes sense 15/02/2026 day 558
