I think I'm taking a break from Set It Off stuff for awhile.
I'm just...I dunno. Honestly, Cody's tweet got me thinking.
I'm not sure why, it just did.
There are times where I wish I hadn't grown so fond of the boys.
I hate tweeting/texting/emailing one of them and worrying about how they're gonna react when my name pops up on the screen. Because, me being me, I always jump to the worse possible conclusion. I always picture whomever I contacted with a disgusted look on their face 'oh, her again.' It's just what I do, I can't help it.
I just hate feeling like that could be going on and I wouldn't know it. I don't know. None of this makes sense to me right now.
I'm not saying that the guys are probably assholes, because from experience I know they aren't. They're the kindest and most genuine guys you'll ever get the chance of meeting.
I've just grown too fond of them..too dependent of them...and I don't want them looking at me as the girl who is broken and can't get her life together on her own. I can do it, I know I can...I hope I can.
If any of the sio boys are reading this, thank you for helping me this far.
I'm just lost right now and don't know what to do.
But, I think it's time I took a short break from FYSIO-/FYMMD/LSIOT.
A mini sio hiatus if you will. But knowing me it'll probably only last a short period of time. Who knows...
Sorry for bailing guys. But, hopefully I'll be back soon.
-jessie