I’ve been trying to find the right words about the news with marius this whole week. But honestly when I try to dig deep, I always go back to the time when Keito announced his departure. It just feels like deja vu all over again.
But I feel like I can’t say anything out in the open because it will come from this “comparing them to other groups” and i might get flamed or “they’re not the same, why won’t you shut your mouth instead?” So i did. Also, I know very little of him and SZ (I only really know bits and pieces of them from my friends) that talking about this at length doesn’t feel… right.
I also wanna say “been there, done that” but that just sounds condascending and rude. Because I do have been there and done all the things that I’m seeing from the fans right now. And I fully understand them. And honestly, the only reason why I can look like things are fine is because I have jump. (And my upcoming trip lol)
So to see these fans so pained and sad because the very thing keeping them okay is the one that hurt them, I know that feeling. It’s like there’s no one to turn to. You feel betrayed and alone. Sure you have friends who feel the same way and you can talk about your feelings, but the ACTUAL sad, hole in your heart, chest tightening feeling? That’s only with you. You wanna feel better so you instinctively turn to your idol group, who will again make you feel bad because of what’s happening. It’s a vicious cycle.
Anyway, I just wanna get this off lol. It’s such a great move from SZ to (finally!!) open IG and spam with their chaos just when they’re 5 again, and for Marius to have an amazing send off show at THE Johnnys Countdown. I remember Keito’s graduation perf and that’s just FC exclusive. But with Mari - he has the whole agency and the whole world to see him off. That’s so ideal!
To the sekurabas - tonight will bring so much more emotions than you’ve felt the past 4 days. And I promise you these won’t stop even days after (coming from someone who experienced heartbreak from arashi and jump lol). One day you’ll feel okay, and then it won’t. Grieving will take time, and it can take forever. Whatever it is, people grow and people change, but sz will always be 5, and remember to love them at all points of their group and individual career. 🌹
To Mari - you’re a very brave and strong kid to have survived the entertainment industry since 11 years old. Not to mention the courage you need to have to admit to yourself and the members that you have to leave to chase your dream. You’ve always been a dreamer, and I feel really proud of all the things you have done. Go spread your incredibly big wings and continue to be the bright light in everyone’s lives. 🧡