IM slowly learning i cant hold on to past things & or relationships ;
im the one always stressed when it comes to break ups , but im never the type to
stress over people ; idk why that is but im never like that ;
i told my self i wouldnt give up ; but you're showing me why i should ... shame
welp moving on to BIGGER & Better things mos def' . Im about to be 18 , no longer on the track for finding myself , i know who i am , and nothing or not one will change that ... its kinda sad that we ended up being at the point we are , is it my fault . YES is it your fault HELL YEA , you pushed i pushed , then we both grapsped each others hand and stoood firm ; but after a while of pushing i just watched you fall and i didnt reach out a hand to catch you ... &&thats what im doing now DONE ... so damn DONE . do i love you , YES . if i can sit here & say that i dont still love you , then it was never love at all ... am i in love with you absolutly not , you made me realize that . do i miss you ; YES but NO , i think i miss the idea of you MORE than i actually miss you . I CAN FINALLY BE SMART ABOUT IT & NOT BE IN DENIAL ABOUT IT. you are a great person with a wonderful soul & you deserve someone who deserves you ... as for me In order to MOVE on i have to Close One Chapter Of Life To Open Another One .IM MOVING ON , TOO FAR GONE TO LOOK BACK .
FUTURE: I MISS YOU alot , lol you really do make me feel different , like in all the hell my life was becoming , you kind of saved me lol from my self , on the low i was battling kind of a bad break up ; but i never showed you that it really did affect me . but you still was there as a friend , and i appreciate you for that ; Shnookums , you are trulyyyyy amazinggggg . you make my mind go wildddddddd girl trust me ; when ever i see you ; i swear i turn into the biggest clumsy-est < if thats a word ... little dork i think that could walk to face of the earth . you have me in sort of a state of shock by your beauty , you are something special to me and babe if you dont know that , well now you know ; January 14th thats a wonderful date isnt it . hahah anywho you are probably one of the best things that is happening to me , i know when we have conversations i can just sit there and listen to you talk ... you intellect has me in awe of you . your smile , GIRL YOUR SMILE , its breathtaking. your YOUR TOUCH , gives me chills ekk <3 , & when WE KISS , that feeling is indescribable , i feel so redundant when ever i describe how you make me feel because im constantly talking about it . pero , you just have me like that sometimes and i LOVE the feeling <3 xoxo
