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TW bi mans opinion

I hate heated rivalry so bad the plot sucks ass it’s not that emotional or moving, this shit is literally just fetish media for straight women and odd ppl who have nothing better to do. It’s boring as hell too i don’t know how anyone is watching it normally. It’s like someone’s 2013 wattpad fanfic got through on the writers board for once. Yes I can focus on the relationship of the characters, I personally just think they didn’t do good with it. The dialogue is also hard to listen to sometimes🥹🤞

I could careless about the amount of sexual scenes, it’s a bit much imo but I understand that DL relationships can be that way, they just didn’t do it well. On the bit much part I personally think it does go onto a boarder of being straight prn with a little bit of plot in some aspects. The characters have no chemistry from what I’ve seen at least - i find it kind of hard to feel/see the chemistry the characters are suppose to be having especially while facing conflict in their relationship or when they’re suppose to be having a cute moment - it all just kind of feels like they’re being paid to like each other even in private.

Also just barely any rivalry 😒 beat each other up or something (I’m kidding)

I mainly hate the fandom because if you disagree they FIGHT for their life to change your opinion so you say it’s good. “did you even watch it?” Yes it was ass. Let me BREATHE 😩 Most of them struggle to let someone have an opinion or a bad take on the show.

The fandom has some emotional takes, but most of the time it’s over exaggerated in my honest opinion, I’ll go to the scenes sometimes and it’ll be like not as emotional as they’re describing it. I’m not expecting down pouring rain with screaming and shitting, but I’m expecting more than what they give us.

Perhaps I’m also just tired of straight women and odd people in general taking over gay media, unsure if that’s a bad thing to say - most of the time it’s uncomfortable and creepy when they get into it. And then you can’t argue with (some) of them - because it’s either a straight person trying to know more than you on your own community or it’s some creepazoid defending it with all the wrong points.

But damn…just damn all I got there.

just from what I’ve taken in - obviously we all have our own views

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I think I suck at writing because I was homeschooled badly growing up and never really needed to do essays or was encouraged to do much with writing til college, but even then I’m not that encouraged. I was discouraged a lot too when I made ocs so I lowkey stopped writing because all people wanted from my character was fan service 😭

Now I can’t sit and think of anything or really know how to begin something, I’m either overexplaining a single action or scene. Sometimes it just looks like all my thoughts were thrown up sometimes. I get stuck constantly and end up putting it down and then back up and then down - constant cycle LMAO

Even with great writing advice I get stuck and it’s frustrating to me because I really do want to write about ocs and characters in general, I just can’t though. I often also overthink my writings, especially backstories to characters I write - the constant thought of it not making sense to others and looking like a mess is always on the table but I don’t wanna ask for feedback at the same time 😭

I do write mental illnesses though, because am I going to limit myself of learning how to write it? No I can do easy research about it and write it properly. I just hope it doesn’t look like I’m overdoing it to other people - most of the time I hope people will tell me if something’s off, like bro please tell me if Mr whiskers schizophrenia makes sense

I do this in roleplay too where I overthink my own character or canon characters and think I’m doing the worst reenactment known to man, it also just a fear of not pleasing people and underwhelming them - it’s not their fault, I’ve just have had too many wack experiences with ocs and writing

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I love when people in different fandoms want friends or mutuals and then when you try to talk to them they literally are the driest person ever and stop responding within a day

Was I not what you wanted?😭😭 damn 😭

It’s always someone that shares the same interests as me too

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Speaking on movies I hate

I fucking hate call me by your name

I couldn’t finish it because it was creeping me out, I shouldn’t really have to say why but yk we all need a call me by your name summer!😋

We all need a summer where we’re 17 and have an older man creeping on us! Yes!!!!

Sorry I’m irritated today