I stayed up all night listening to the beliefs of people I don’t necessarily trust. I want to be the kind of person that actually does what they say they do. I want to take new info in and change my opinion accordingly. However, as I in fact, didn’t sleep a wink last night I find myself falling into harmful self talk. While morals are an important aspect of many values and keeping these morals close isn’t wrong it feels like I’m being compared to people that genuinely don’t care. I’d like to believe I do care for both sides of this issue but there does seem to be a clear power imbalance. I want to do more research but I have so much on my plate already… would I be a bad person to let this fall to the wayside in a sense? Idk if this makes any sense…
I always want to put people first. The real life impact of the things we do. It’s frustrating to feel like for example people are talking my feelings on the American industrial military complex and dumbing it down to I don’t care about Iran??!? I can understand that real good can come from this war and also understand that going into a war for seemingly no reason other than to boost ones image or some bullshit is in fact and a really shitty reason to kill people. Will meaningful change come to the people of Iran? I am an asshole to bring that up? Idk man people seem so polarized and then talk about how I’m the radicalized one… is either good or bad! Morally good or morally evil! I felt like I was watching people say one thing and then agree with someone that ultimately completely disagrees seemingly with the beliefs they stated they have. I’m tired, I need to research, and ultimately I think I really need to get involved with small scale activism.
I just hope this isn’t anyone’s first intro to me because this is word vomit helpful contained entirely with in on text post on tumblr
