#garbage rant

[satractic]

"Man I'm so sad Microsoft and Apple have to comply with age verification laws, but at least Linux doesn't"

Microsoft and Apple would go out of their way to add age verification even if all age verification laws were retracted. We're talking about companies founded by Epstein's circle of friends here. Hell they almost definitely already know each user's age and take advantage of that data.

Meanwhile RedHat was ready to add age verification to SystemD before the law even passed.

[wozadogtor]

Nonsense rant.

Reading interviews of musicians i like and respect about dark periods in their life and its just hitting me now these people routinely had strong support networks and often family that cared very deeply about them. I'm not sure its envy, or jealousy, but i resent that near every time someone can make something beautfiul that resonates with a wider audience it's the case of them having something i could never and will never get. Something most people never get. Time and patience for healing.

I dont think they dont deserve it. I think everyone deserves it, and so few people get it. Something as simple as Bon Iver being able to fuck off to his dads hunting shack to reflect for a month or six and he comes back to drop that album. Like. There's a lot of implication going into that in the first place, its not just a place to heal and reflect but a clear showing of an upbringing that even allowed the guy to be in a position to write an album like that in the first place. If I'd been offered the same i couldn't do that because my parents would tell me im insane for even trying the arts because "no one in this family could fart a tune" or some other garbage. In the cases i tried it wasn't as funny or silly when I'd just get called a fag or a sook.

Why can't more people get that. Why can't the world be kinder and more patient. I look at people who got it with a weird resentment. I wouldn't take it from them, i wouldn't prevent a child from getting it, I work to make sure the worlds kinder.

But i still resent it wasn't to me.

[anewbrainjughead]

I'm really really not good today but it's Halloween and my sister invited me out and I feel like I should go but I don't want to go because I don't have a costume. Also she's going to a club and I am not in that frame of mind rn. My ideal Halloween plans would have been planned like a week in advance so I could get a costume and they would probably just be doing séances in the woods and getting drunk and going to a pub and wearing Halloween costumes and doing Halloween party things. Also watching fun campy movies. This is my favourite holiday and I'm just pissed about everything idk

[coolreference]

A letter to my parents

(Wrote them a note I’ll never send)

Look I get that you need to tell me to clean my stuff but it doesn’t help me

Idk how to make myself clean idk what’s wrong with me but I feel like I can’t do anything

And I don’t have a solution either but I can tell you that getting rid of them will break my heart and telling me what I know I need to do but can’t isn’t helpful

Even if it’s meant as a friendly reminder

Idk why I get so upset about some things like moving the Xbox or driving places with other people or when other people clean my room or when I get asked question I don’t have an answer to should

Idk why I procrastinate and don’t do my work that’s probably why I fail at least one class a semester and why it’s taking me so long I just don’t want you to know cuz then you will tell me to do things idk how to and I can’t do the way it is

I feel like I ask for help and you do nothing

I’m so afraid of doing something wrong I don’t do it and even now writing this I think I’m wrong I think I’m probably making this up for shock value but why would I do that why do I not like loud noises anymore why can a be lost sometimes but not other times why am I such a fucking hypocrite

I think people at work hate me I actually think most people do my confidence is fake only because I’m trying to fake it till I make it but then again I can do whatever I want in front of a stranger maybe it’s like mob mentality or peer pressure

I also lie like a lot and idk why like fuck I make up so much shot just to sound interesting maybe it’s for attention idk

I also use my medicine as an excuse which is so shitty of me like wtf my mental illness is not an excuse idk how to be better and I want to be but I need help and you guys suck at it

I was very excited for mom to clean my room y’all have done that for josh for years I thought my room would be clean but all that was left was the clothes I hate that part the most and it was all wrong but I wasn’t allowed to be upset and I understand why but I was still upset

Hahahahahaha I’m probably just insane cuz I brought the Xbox up here and I won’t ever plug it in and if I do it’ll be slowly

And why don’t you ever want me to have my kind of fun

Why are my things never important I try hard to do things for you guys but I can barely do things for myself I know you say I’m always on my “thing” or “device” for god sakes say the name of it just say computer or phone or Xbox you know what they are but like I do nothing on them I’m procrastinating doing things I enjoy like makeup or writing and I’m just a failure I can’t do anything ever and oh my god is it so hard to think with empathy like if something makes someone upset don’t say it ITS NOT THAT HARD AND SCIENTIFIC PAPERS ARE AN EXCELLENT SOURCE AND SPECIFICALLY CANT BE BIASED duh it’s the reason it’s a scientific paper

You say you can’t believe everything in the internet but I know how to fact check cuz I’m not an idiot despite what you think and I’m sure this is unintelligible garbage that you will only focus on like two parts and totally not understand me so I probably won’t send it

[garbage-ray]

Girls Clothing

I'm so pissed right now. Just because of this stupid radio programm. Just wanna go to bed again. This world is so wrong.

This piece of the programm was something about "Girls Clothing in Schools". (note that I'm from Germany and I always thougt that we were pretty cool in schools with this stuff. haha I was so wrong)

First of all, just the Girls Cloths. Not Boys and Girls. No, just Girls. Cause Girls are really mean. Always wearing those sexy clothing. Trying to turn all the Boys eyes on them. Urgh!

The next thing that made me wanna throw my coffee cup out of the window was: "Before you make rules about the clothing, you should ask the Girls 'Do you know what could happen, if you were this in the dark?'. DAFUQ?? Before you teach your daughters to expect rape or sexuall harrasment you should teach your sons to act not like assholes! This is Rape Culture again, isn't it? 

Then someone (Note: Man)  called the radiohost (again a Man) and had to share his way of thinking: "If I hadn't been so distracted in school, because of the clothing, I would have had much better grades." Yeah right... You know what Mister Phonecaller. I bet the girls in your calls did this on purpose. Maybe they wanted to be the best one in class. No, but seriously. What the hell is that? Shove it in the girls in your class. Maybe a Iittle more learing und not acting like a 12 year old would have done you good. I don't say the boys should be imune to attractions. But they should learn to handle them with time. Get a grip!

Then a woman called, saying that she works as a nurse and she had to wear plain underware under her workclothing. And that it's okay to make such rules when you have to work. And when you're in school or it's your freetime such rules don't really make sense. 

Then the last caller called saying something like: " If you want to teach girls what so wear, you schould also theach the boys. Have you seen those bappy pants? This stuff is disgusting. If you're lucky you can also see the boys underware." My hero in this dark time! Don't always just go after the girls! Boys to! I have to admit some girls dress really slutty these days. But that gives no one the right to make them guilty for everything.  Most of the time women are the weak gender. But once in a while, when someone needs scapegoat women are so powerful. With their clothing that makes men to beats. Because that in the men nature right, Right no! this is Bullshit! Stay behind your own actions, And if this actions are wrong, don't do them! Stop giving all the guilt to someone else. Wether it's women or men. Take resposibility for your actions.

Woha, that was a really long rant. But I had to get that out of my system. My Dad is the only one home at the moment, a nd his is not really the right person to talk about something like that...