#gayte

[buck-yyyy]

i’ll never forget when i was listening to the girl i like talk about a show we were watching, and i was kinda laying right next to her on the couch on my stomach but looking straight up at her, and yk when you’re just absolutely like,,, enamored, for lack of a better word, with whoever you’re looking at and it’s like there’s literal stars in your eyes because for a moment that person is everything? yeah. that was me.

but here’s the funny part- i realized in that very moment that ‘jesus fucking christ, this is how mike was looking at will during the painting scene’

anyways that’s all the byler proof i’ll ever need because i was NOT looking at that girl in a heterosexual way LMAO

[buck-yyyy]

hi bbs wanna get married in Vegas..... and then gamble... and get rich....

hot

[buck-yyyy]

HOLY FUCKIN SHIT IT'S BEEN A YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! have been dating the prettiest girl i've ever met for a YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[buck-yyyy]

i’m gonna cry. like i’m actually on the verge of tears, i—

she wrote me letters. she wrote me eight letters, three of which she gave me today and the rest which will be arriving in the mail, and they’re all addressed ‘dearest theo’, and one of them is titled in russian (which she knows i’m learning), and i—

i don’t think anyone has ever cared about me this much i’m in pieces on the floor slash pos

[buck-yyyy]

soooooo i asked the girl about prom

i can’t tell if she picked up on it being a friend thing or if she assumed it was romantic bc she teased me about it all night lmao-

she told me i’d have to seduce her first and then said that my romantic skills needed some work because that was the most underwhelming possible promposal (i just asked if she would be interested since my mom is pushing me to go)

she didn’t say yes but she didn’t say no? but i think the answer was an implied no, which honestly i’m okay with and was kinda expecting, ‘s all chill :)

and off topic but AGH guys she was laying on me and kissed my forehead and at one point had her head on my shoulder and kissed the lil bit where my neck connects to my shoulder and i just. i really like her okay T-T

[buck-yyyy]

in love for realsies actually

[buck-yyyy]

wanna BE HELD BY HER and BE KISSED BY HER and BE WITH HER but NOooOoOoOo, we’re THOUSANDS OF MILES APART

[buck-yyyy]

oh my god

oh my god

OH MY GOD

i was on the phone with Her and she said she was gonna have to go to bed but “before i go, i just have to say, even though it’s something we both know well enough without me saying it out loud, which is, of course, i love you”

IM IN TEARS SHE REALLY JUST TOLD ME SHE LOVES ME WITH A GOLDFINCH QUOTE