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[goblinpaladin]

this is your not so friendly reminder that exclusionists suck and are huge assholes! 

[gaeaisnowhere]

I am thankful because I could have been in someplace but I am here. I am thankful that this is the space for me and these are the people I am with now. I am thankful that although there are people who failed me, and I failed, too, there are still those who chose to be with me in every step, even the leaps I'm sometimes afraid to take. I felt the faith they always have had for me. So from there, I kept it.

[gaeaisnowhere]

I never imagined I would go this far. I could have been just in contentment with how things used to be but I took all the courage I can get to take a step forward. Now, with no hesitations, I can say everything is worth it. The farther I get, the more rewarded and fulfilled I feel. Every day I am more and more grateful. I have never been so happy this much.

So I am holding on to this.

I choose to do so for always.

[gaeaisnowhere]

Here I go again trying to get away from all the vagueness in my sight. I want to see clear from now on but how do I do that? Sometimes I think I should just let things pass... But I feel like the situation always calls for action yet I can't quite figure out where to start. It frustrates me.

How can something you know you have passion for confuse you so hard it freaks you out?

Perhaps it sparked for a moment but did not really burn inside. Or could it be from the very beginning, passion never lit?

[gaeaisnowhere]

Kung kailan ka tumanda, saka ka natakot humakbang. Kung kailan may sarili ka ng lakas at disposisyon at hindi mo na kailangang umasa sa mga tao sa paligid mo para maabot ang isang bagay, saka ka natakot kumilos. Kung kailan mas nauunawaan mo na ang tao ay may gawing mapangmata at mapanghusga sa ilang pagkakataon, saka ka pa nagtaka kung bakit ganyan sila.

Nasaan ang iyong lakas ng loob? Hahayaan mo na bang lumisan ang pagiging masaya ngayong may pagkakataon ka na? Ngayon pa?

[gaeaisnowhere]

If it is for me, it is for me. I am bound to accept this fate. I believe everything was predetermined from the very beginning; nobody needed my approval. Nobody can attest to what may happen in the coming days. All I know is that I must live not a life just dedicated for my own. I am nothing but a mere breathing creature. So be it, let me be used by the Author according to my purpose.

I believe in the good behind these. So be it, with no more worries. 

[gaeaisnowhere]

The day was harsh and unmerciful. It was long, tiresome, and dragging. I wanted it to end. Instead, it went on. It went on for too long. I wanted to close my eyes and feel the rush of blood in my veins, the thumping of my heart inside my chest, and the brushing of the wind on my skin. I want rest, because I thought I am already having enough of all distress.

Too much negative-meaning words. Today shall be filled with positive ones, yes. Today shall be different. 

[gaeaisnowhere]

Well, I have never really been sure with things in life. All I know is I am learning to love how everything goes--the way I want and the way they just happen. I have learned to be accepting of it all. No pressures, no regrets.

I just want to grow. I choose to grow.