#geesh

[blessedanddedicated]

My neck. My back. My neck and my back 🥴

[blessedanddedicated]

My nails so sharp I stay accidentally scratching the shit outta myself 🤦🏾‍♀️

[blessedanddedicated]

I never thought I would be put in the place to be the .. rock so to speak, the emotional backbone of my family and friends. It's honoring, certainly humbling, but also a lot of pressure and weight. I understand the phrase now, "weight of the world on my shoulders", that's definitely what it feels like. Idek how I got into this role and I'm glad I have the skills and abilities to be in this position but it's crazy to realize, especially with all this going on on every side of my family at once 🌪️

[blessedanddedicated]

It's soooo crazy how you go into a certain environment, even if it's not exactly the same, but it triggers sooooooo many memories

[notbroadwaybound]

[ashesinthewritten]

been on a ghibli binge lately. I grew up on Ponyo and Arietty, and now that I’ve gone through all my nostalgia watches, I am watching a lot of Ghibli. I just love the slow pacing and the slice of life feels.

Kiki’s Delivery Service: So cute. I love the cat.

howl’s moving castle: loved the story. didn’t understand why the witch of the waste cursed Sophie. But the romance felt like it came after the the sorcerer said Sophie was in love with Howl. Still liked it though. LOVED SOPHIE. Howl is a melodramatic icon. Mr. Meltdown I need to read the book once I have the time.

my neighbor Totoro: ouch. Eldest daughter syndrome anyone. Ouch. It’s good. But just ouch. Also: love the supportive dad, hated the boy’s mother

and now I’ve watched When Marnie was there. And it’s so good. And it’s so euuugghhhh. It was like a giant ????? And also slightly creepy/sinister when child Marnie was singing. Also Marnie and Anna are related??? By blood???????????????????(?????)??????

I can totally understand the message of love will last even past death. Especially for people who feel so alone in the world.

HOWEVER

That was not platonic between Anna and Marnie. Like, hello? “I love you more than any girl I’ve ever known.”????????????? That did not read as platonic. Especially because they look like they are in the same age range. And don’t get me started on that poster! Holding hands on the beach with their backs to each other? That screamed like a sadly little star-crossed lovers.

I don’t know what new-to-me Ghibli movie to watch after that…

I’m going back to Howl’s for now.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[notbroadwaybound]

when you are one of the finalists for a job back in the city you went to grad school in and a majority of your friends are and then you get a message that one of your friends in that city cheated on his wife (also your friend) which has said friend group fractured

[frazzledsoul]

I did not have Rachel Broshanan on my bingo card as someone with psychotic fans who would physically threaten her spouse, but apparently it's never the people you suspect.