feel like the older I get the more complex and weird my gender feelings get… I can’t tell if it’s me understanding myself more and more and seeing just how outside of average peoples ideas of gender I am, and how much I do not belong or feel comfortable in extremely binary gendered spaces (pretty much everywhere let’s be honest lmao), or that adulthood comes with its own very specific and weird “genderedness” like being a woman in her mid 20’s is such a specific thing, a specific thing that I am NOT. And yet everyone can only see me in that context that I very much do not fit in any way shape or form and I don’t think even many Cis women do… like idk man. I’m getting older and tired and I just feel very out of place the more comfortable I feel with myself which is kind of weird and ironic maybe? Like I know who I am and what I am is just so not any of “this” and it’s very very hard to exist in a space that is very much flatland when I’m a whole fucking sphere, excuse my high school geometry reference LMAO