But yeah after accepting myself as agender and demigirl I've been doing some introspection and finally feel comfortable calling myself trans!
I also have five different labels I use to describe my gender... So there's agender and demigirl. Then, both being under the trans umbrella, trans as well (I mean I'm not cis, so definitely trans).
Then those two are also under the nonbinary umbrella and I have always loved the idea of someone referring to me as an enby. So I'm also nonbinary/enby.
Then I realized that this is a lot, so I'm probably going to also use genderqueer when talking to people I don't want to get into this all with. It basically covers all of it lol.
I also have no problem with just the label of girl.
Girl and Enby can be used interchangeably as well as Genderless Bean.
So in the end my gender identity is trans, nobinary, agender, demigirl, and genderqueer. I went from being okay with just being a cis girl to agender to agender and demigirl to suddenly having five different labels... I love it.
That's not even getting into my sexual and romantic orientations...
I'm definitely pan, as I experience some sort of attraction to women, men, and everyone who is both, neither, or their own thing. I love all of them.
But I've also identified as aroace in some capacity since I was 15. I was aroace, then cupioromantic and ace, then grayromantic and ace, now I have no idea how to define my romantic attraction and I'm still ace, but I'm questioning whether or not I might be demi ace? I will just go with a-spec or quoiromantic/wtfromantic. And also I'm sex-favorable and want to have that as part of my life despite having no sexual attraction to my knowledge.
I've never actually had a partner before (but I definitely want one) so I won't know most of the answers until I go on that adventure. But also I don't want to date someone I can't be completely honest about all of this with. And I seriously doubt that I will be able to tell someone I'm seeing romantically that I am aro-spec.
Like I won't start a relationship with someone I don't feel any way towards, and while I don't know if I'll know romantic attraction if I feel it, I wouldn't be dating the person at all if I didn't feel anything toward them. But also I just know that bringing up the fact that I used to be entirely aroace or that I still question to what degree I even feel romantic attraction is not the thing to do. I don't want to plant seeds of insecurity in my partner's mind. I want them to know I love them.
