#generationlossfictive

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<genloss ep 3 spoilers>

i miss charlie and sneeg so bad. the others two, but those guys were like my brothers. sorry i didnt come back for you

- ranboo (generation loss, tag #fictive)

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happy disability pride month. after showfall, my charlie was an ambulatory wheelchair user and niki was a cane user. i probably shouldve had something too, but i didnt, heh. they got some shit for it sometimes, but it was alright

im making up for the fact i never used an aid in my timeline by being in a disabled body now. we use a cane lmao

...i miss those guys. sigh

- ranboo (generation loss, fictive)

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So anyways. Fuck Showfall Media. - Gracie (Generation Loss Ranboo fictive)

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i hate how fast time can fast. maybe it's from how fast the years passed when i was still in the cabin, going from a kid to an adult. if i blink, will time pass without me? i don't have all the time in the world. i don't like it as.. well. me. i hate it. it reminds me of how small control i have. if time passed by so fast, was it for entertainment? was i put on screen throughout most of my life? did the audience see me grow into a fully unfunctional adult? how much time do i have before i can't catch up anymore? please. i don't want to be reminded of the presence of time anymore. i'm sick of it.

- charlie (genloss) fictive

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For the canon divergence ask game:

I think the weirdest one for me is that i was 16 during the events of TSE (in actual canon, The Hero is 19(?)). Either that, or the fact that my name is Gracie instead of Ranboo. Might not be that weird, idk. - Gracie (Generation Loss fictive)

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it feels like our friends moved on from my source so fast. i keep writing and i keep sending songs that remind me of my source and i hardly get a response. idk if im overreacting about this or not. outside of it being my source we are also just super hyperfixated on it so maybe im just. reacting weird because of that

- ranboo (generation loss, fictive)

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i miss sneeg's hugs. he only gave it out to ranboo and i but they always meant something important to me. at least.

i missed midnight talks with ranboo, where it started quiet and delved into something more absurd, when neither of us could sleep at night.

i missed how niki's protective front fell when we were all safe in our small home. how her words defended us just as strongly as her hands.

i miss bantering with ethan and austin, where austin was always the logical one and both of us were just as ridiculous as the other. or ethan's overly sarcastic attitude that was still somehow familial. or how austin somehow remembered how to ground someone because he'd done it plenty of times.

i miss the trinkets vinny gave each of us, especially the small cat plushie he gave me. it started small, like snowglobes or keychains, but eventually became things like posters or hanging lights that were as long as an entire wall.

i miss them all

any genloss fictives out there: i hope you're doing well. i miss all of you, even if we don't share the same memories (? i don't know what the word for a fictive's version of source is called)

- charlie (genloss) fictive

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in another life we were free. that was the life i've grown to remember. that was the life i only want to remember. even if none of us particularly healed from what showfall did to us, we were still family. we still had each other and that's all that matters to me.

- charlie (genloss) fictive