How’s it been?
Okay, so it’s been a while tumblr, what’s been happening with me? Well, good and bad I guess. Good news first, still have my job after almost 6 months working there, just bought a new car that is mine; insurance and ownership are all in my name, making it officially my first OWNED car. I’m planning to move out of my parents’ place in September which is going to be stressful with my sister getting married and all that, and I seem to be holding steady so far with everything else.
So the bad news? Recently I suffered a panic attack driven by my father, with him also insulting all that I learned within the past 6 months working at my job as a junior computer tech, which is 75% the reason why I’m planning on moving out, and I feel like my life has hit a brick wall. I don’t feel driven to do much lately. Hell even new games I bought are feeling old after a couple days. Still single (go figure, which is the other 25% of the reason I’m moving out), and I put my weight back on. I’m having troubles, but the difference here is that I was able to notice it. I've taken a different approach at what’s going on and now making attempts to fix those problems. I’m seeking counselling with my problems, both I’m hoping will help me achieve a healthier lifestyle with both my physical and mental health. I was originally going to move as soon as possible, but I have a minor setback of a credit card to pay off, and a couple summer trips to take care of before I go ahead with this. I did feel like I had no obtainable goals for a while, the main two being moving out and having a relationship with someone. The relationship won’t happen just yet with the way I've been lately (I think the way I type is a huge factor, too formal sometimes :/ ) but the moving is a obtainable goal as long as I have the assistance to back it up. A couple places are standing out to me at the moment, only issue being one place is possibly taken already, and the other is only 3-4 doors down from where I live now. There are other places but these two are the only places I have any previous connections with the landlords in my life. So here I am today, trying to keep myself steady on a flimsy board. It takes only one false move and my plans will fall out from under me. But these goals I now have set for myself are going to be big accomplishments in my life. The new car was a kick starter into trying to achieve more with where I am, so I can’t stop now. Hell, when the mental health counselor says that you don’t belong in the town you live in because you can do so much better, that right there is something I've been waiting to hear for the longest time. That right there is what I needed to hear. Since I began my new job I have been told a lot of things that I’ve been thinking about that are actually true. My outlook about finding work was never wrong, my impressions on how my town operates and why it’s doing so badly lately was never wrong. Just having someone who sees things from my perspective has been an enlightening experience. I’ll admit that when I was told that my perspective about finding work was never wrong, I ended up crying a short time after. It was relief after having my thoughts about how I find work constantly berated by friends and family alike for years. To finally hear from an employer no less, that finding a job that you can enjoy and accomplish in comes before the paycheck. Oh, should make a note of this too. I recently also helped with a graphic for a mobile game that may be seeing partnership with Harley Davidson! No shit either. I mean all I did was redesign the game’s title art, but holy shit I had a hand in the creation of a video game. I don’t know if the game will be successful since it is a mobile app game, and I was hearing some music for a promotional animation for it that I heard in a game before (b0rd3rl4nd5 t00). Regardless, it was an experience I never thought I would have working from this town, and it was a worthwhile break from cleaning viruses off of computers all day.
So yeah, that’s pretty much the gist of what’s been happening with me lately. Just one more thing before I go though.
SHAMELESS YOUTUBE CHANNEL PLUG TIME!
My buddy has been doing lets plays lately and I happening to co-star in a couple of the videos. I recommend watching this one if you’re looking to play some background noise for about an hour while doing something else. Why this one? BECAUSE I KICKED HIS FUCKING ASS IN IT THAT’S WHY! MWHAHAHAHAH! Seriously though go check it out, I had so much fun playing this game with him and would love to be able to make more videos like this with him in the future.
Click here to see the video!
If you read this all the way through, thank you so much for taking the time to read this. I only posted this as a way to relieve some of the stress I felt this week, and I hope your courtesy reaches my future posts :)