PORTRAYAL NOTES & CANON DIVERGENCE.
okay this was SO long overdue, but it took me a while to find my footing in his muse and try out different angles on his character until finding one that felt most my style. and now here we are! with the most bisexual-coloring meta post banner in existence for my bi king. this was originally the intro to a much longer post, but it was SO much longer i ended up deciding to split it up into several metas. it's fine. ANYWAY.
jumping straight into the most important part, suguru geto is a villain. i readily and happily acknowledge this. obviously, there are several catalyst life events that lead into him becoming a villain, but ultimately, he is still a man who chose — and was completely at peace with, all the way up to and including his last words — non-sorcerer genocide. that is not something i want to wash out of his character, particularly in canon-compliant verses.
( as a quick note, i will not be using the word monkeys while roleplaying him. it's just a personal choice, it makes me feel icky ooc. doesn't change the fact that he dehumanizes non-sorcerers. i just won't be including it in my vocabulary here. )
that being said: this portrayal of him, if we're looking at a scale from 'at his evilest' to 'at his softest', is probably going to hover somewhere near the middle, but skew softer. i love to dig my teeth into characters that make and stand by terrible choices, primarily focusing & shining a light on what the fuck happened to make them that way. geto is the perfect example of this. he is not a good person — but he was one, and he could have stayed one. and even at his best, he battles darkness.
he's not one thing. he is so many things all at once and their dominance over his choices is constantly shifting. he is a hypocrite, a walking contradiction, a man with a god complex, a broken boy, and he contains an impossible amount of love and an impossible amount of hate.
it's a hard balance to strike because i don't want to woobify him or downplay his villainry, but that's not really the part of his character i'm most interested in exploring. it exists, it's important, i acknowledge it happily and eat it tf up in other people's portrayals, but it's not the focus.
just generally, i'm really bad with consistently writing a muse — especially one i'm so focused on like geto — doing terrible shit and being a terrible person for reasons that don't make sense to me. it's something i like to explore occasionally/in moderation (like a very indulgent dessert) to break up the monotony of more emotionally conflicted vibes.
finally, angst is probably sixty percent of my biological makeup, so the tragedy of suguru geto (shakespeare play when???) is gonna be a big theme here as well.
that's allll. i release uuuu.
