It Doesn't Need to be a Lifetime Movie, its pretty much every single soap!
In respect to Bridget Jones: Today I weigh 164lbs, No cigarettes, no alcohol, and the amount of calories?? I would be able to count lol. Good thing I'm not hungry.
Today was indeed my day off! Although I slept until 11 am, ergo I missed the most of the day. I'm sorry to say I haven't enjoyed sleeping in since high school, it's only because adulthood has already given me too many responsibilities. My brother raised that question today, how much he thought that with adulthood would equate to freedom when, really he's less free.
Although today is my day off I've been running around helping my family do different things. I felt more obligated then actually wanting to do half of what I've done today. None the less, the day is over my own personal to do list isn't crossed out and I'm indeed getting sick. With working tomorrow, I never feel like I can really get anything done. However, I'm given some reprieve with closing instead of opening. We'll see if I can actually get everything done tomorrow! Lets hope so.
This little fact, has raised my attention to the fact that I feel obligated. Heck, we all when it comes to family and friends all indeed feel obligated. According to popular social behaviors we have to indeed do things for each other, even when we don't want to. Okay, I get that we all do! We all are put in just uncomfortable situations where we feel awkward or we have to fake like we're happy to be there. For me my situation today was the awkward thing. It's was just a weird and foreign situation that doesn't seem to be getting easier.
But isn't wrong, is it wrong to not want to be put in those situations family or not. Is it wrong or selfish to want to avoid these situations, live without un-needed stress and do what you have to do? Maybe its me, or my catholic guilt but I don't feel good if I don't help when asked.
Being that this year is a new year, and I'm going to be pushing myself out of my comfort zone I'm making a list:
-singing in public (lo/unpaid) :)
-publish five short stories!
-Whatever the universe wants to throw out, we'll see what happens.
Alright, so long for now. What I have to look forward too? -Once Upon a Time, my tea, my bed, and my writing piece.
Lets see what gets done. Anyone else making a list? As these things get crossed off I'll keep you posted as everything comes up. Hell there might even be some Youtube videos.
