your room is silent in the cold night, save for your rapid heartbeat and the low, humming sounds of tiny moans and whines occasionally leaving jaemin’s mouth, as his sweet lips find their place on top of yours over, and over, and over again
- everyone likes him because he’s friendly with everyone!
- even if you’ve never spoken, he will make you feel comfortable during your first ever conversation
- let’s say, when you get paired up to do a big class project together….. he greets you with the biggest most genuine smile ever when you move your stuff to his table :D
- physically radiates warmth
- which makes u feel Mark Withdrawals when he’s not next to you
- the type of person to laugh so hard he subconsciously leans into you
- but u don’t mind of course
- bc the cutest smiliest boy is this happy over a silly joke You said and is leaning in close and oh my god he smells rly good
- will randomly text u at an ungodly hour asking “i know its ass o’clock but i REALLY want a slurpee rn do u wanna come with”
- inside jokes!!!!!!
- laughing at inappropriate times…. like ur in class and give each other a Look which reminds u of some weird inside joke that has u both cackling in the quiet room
- u get annoyed looks from ur peers but u don’t care .. u don’t care at all bc the blush on his face is everything and makes ur heart beat a billion times faster
- will Never take a hint that you’re into him even though literally all his friends have noticed it and tells him but he just blushes and goes “no way”
- but little does he know…. its Yes Way
- sensitive but doesnt want to show it :(
- late night study sessions that turn into even later night deep conversations
- sigh he’s just rly precious
- oh but also Goofy
- he’s one of those ppl who is funny in context, i.e he doesn’t exactly crack jokes but hanging around him always has you laughing bc he’s just so….. fun
- looks at you with big doe eyes when u speak
- ALSO ALSO!!! the type to nod while you speak in a group to show he’s listening even though everyone else isn’t
- also the type to wait behind with you when you stop to tie your shoelaces
- sends voice messages to tell you abt his day but gets distracted mid way and starts going off on a tangent so long you both forget what he was meant to tell you at first
after countless of hours working on your class project together, you and zoom crush!mark somehow found yourselves tangled up in each other on top of your bed, his lips feverishly meeting yours over and over in delightful harmony.
“god, you drive me crazy,” he murmurs, ignoring your previous statement (or, more realistically, being too drunk on you to hear what you had said). his words make you feel impossibly more flustered and you blindly grasp for him, gently pulling him closer with your hand on the back of his neck.
you’ve lost track of time long ago, not daring to break the kiss even for a second in fear of the both of you suddenly coming to your senses and stopping. you’re a bit embarrassed to admit it, but you’ve daydreamed about this exact moment ever since you first saw mark pop into view that very first zoom class… and now to have him here, one hand anchored in the space where your sweatpants meet your shirt and the other holding your face ever so gently, guiding you to fit into him like a mold, honestly felt too good to be true. but no matter how impossible it feels, you don’t need to pinch yourself to know it’s real. his lips are soft yet firm on yours, and you hear him release a yelp of surprise as you swipe your tongue across his bottom lip.
mark smirks into the kiss to grant you access, the surprise he felt mere seconds before replaced with eagerness.
“god,” he repeats, still in a murmur, “ you seriously drive me crazy.”
drowsy with sleep, your hair a knotted mess and your arms littered with press marks from your bedsheets, you abruptly sit up at the sound of someone who definitely isn’t your roommate. disoriented, you rub your eyes almost comically, taking in the boy standing in front of your bed.
“mark?” you splutter in disbelief, gently caressing the crown of your head to see if you somehow hit it and are now hallucinating. alas, reality catches up with you so rapidly it feels like you’ve been hit with a brick.
zoom crush!mark gives a gentle smile as he observes you pull your blankets higher up, trying (and failing) to cover up your newly awoken, frankly mortified, self.
“you forgot we had a study date, didn’t you? your roommate let me in, i probably should’ve known.”
ignoring the blood rushing to your cheeks at hearing the word ‘date’ (although, admittedly, he didn’t mean it in that way), you squeeze your eyes shut and slowly lower your blankets from your face.
“… i forgot we had a study date.” the words leave your mouth in a slow, careful whisper. the room falls silent save for your beating heart that feels as loud as an orchestra.
“it’s okay, we can reschedule for another—“
“NO!”
mark stops in his tracks, eyeing you. you hadn’t meant to protest so loudly, but the word had come out with more power than intended before you could stop it.
“i mean,” you start, voice trembling, “you already made it here, it’d be a shame to just…. waste that.” the final words leave your mouth in a mere whisper, but mark’s nod confirms he heard them fine. before he can change his mind and exit your apartment, you sit up straighter and pull on the sheets in a meek attempt to make your room look more… presentable.
reaching out to grab the laptop on your bedside table along with your textbooks, you almost push a mug of cold tea onto the floor. as if by sheer magic, mark appears beside you, grabbing the mug and saving it from the fall. you stay completely frozen, afraid to breathe too loudly as you notice his face remains mere centimeters away from yours.
breaking eye contact, he clears his throat, face almost as red as yours.
a mischievous grin adorns the face of lovestruck!jaemin as you scoff.
“i’m literally just cleaning up this wound you got from accepting another one of those stupid dares. now sit still so i can do my job.”
“that doesn’t answer my question,” jaemin chuckles lightly, trying and failing to conceal the wince of pain leaving his body. you look up at him with a concerned frown, the worry in your eyes making his heart beat a thousand times faster.
“sorry, does it hurt a lot?” you ask, trying to dab more carefully around the injury on his knee.
jaemin doesn’t reply, too preoccupied with staring at you with loving eyes, admiring the simple beauty in your features; from the scrunch between your eyebrows as you focus intensely on patching him up to the shape of your cupid’s bow and the tint of your chapped lips.
“jaemin? everything okay?”
he snaps his eyes up to meet yours, his skin growing hotter and his heart beating impossibly faster seeing you study him. he gives a quick nod and you frown, not convinced in the slightest.
“are you sure? you don’t look so well,” you say, gently placing your hand around his wrist, feeling his pulse.
“your pulse is very fast, do you need to lie down?”
jaemin simply shakes his head and looks fondly at you once again. the featherlight grasp you have on his wrist not leaving his mind once, he finally opens his mouth to give a proper response.
“sorry,” he mumbles, mesmerized by the quizzical look on your face, “you’re just so beautiful.”
his mood is contagious and he's always able to bring a smile on your face no matter how cranky you are that day
also will not hesitate to have deep discussions about seemingly insignificant or mundane topics
like once he called you at 2am asking if you think worms have feelings and while it is very adorable it is two in the morning and you have class at 8!!!!!
the type to take out one of his earphones and give it to you without a word when sitting next to you on a train or car ride, or on the couch, anytime really
just has to be physically near you at all times
just has to be physically near you at all times
confident on the outside but actually very soft and blushy
loves when you compliment or hype him up but will never admit it
he's not as sly as he thinks though so you quickly catch on
and of course compliment him at any chance you get
really values genuineness. will probably be a little reserved before getting to know you
but once you become close.... this boy does not stay quiet for long
but you don't mind, because there is not one dull moment with him by your side
110% the type to gift you a big bear plushie for "when he's not there to keep you company"
will relentlessly tease you when he sees it on your bed when you facetime but also loves it so much his heart Might just explode
also the type to insist u get matching tattoos just for you to go first and he chickens out
now you're the only one who got the tattoo so it doesn't make any sense because you decided on some inside joke that would only be completed when you held them side by side
"sorry but it looked so scary!!!! there are NEEDLES!!" "HOW DID YOU THINK A TATTOO WAS MADE?????"
it's okay though, he pouted his way out of trouble as usual
competes with you about who is doing any chore. take out the trash? rock paper scissors. pay for dinner? two rounds of super smash. but if you genuinely weren't in the mood he would no questions asked do your chore for you even if you lost
always the one to suggest horror movies but ends up hiding behind a blanket for half the time
"we can switch movie if you're scared haechan" "i'm not scared!!!!!!! it's just really cold in here!!" "mhm, you sure?" "yes, now cuddle me!!!!! yknow, for more heat"
looks at you very!!! fondly!!! whenever you talk about something you're passionate about
i think this is something he does with all people who are special to him so obviously you're no exception
lets himself into your house/apartment and you nearly get a heart attack coming out of the shower seeing him on your couch watching tv
a lot of "this you" [points at weird drawing in textbook] and playfighting
LOTS of playfighting, pillowfights etc
mario kart tournaments well into the night which only end because his upstairs neighbor comes banging on your door all it's three in the morning if you kids don't turn it down i will call the cops!!
which makes you quiet down before you start giggling hysterically
he catches on and you two have to lie down from laughing so hard, eventually realizing how sleepy you both are and before you know it you're asleep side by side on his couch. grabs hold of your waist so you don't fall off because that couch is Tiny
very thoughtful. will do small acts of kindness without much thought that make ur heart go :((((
like when he got you the biggest container of a snack you offhandedly mentioned loving as a kid like four months ago and one day he's just like "hey i forgot to give this to you" and you're just like?????? you remembered???:((
overall very soft and cute, confident but also a bit fragile... please take care of him</3
did not mean for this to be angsty but i hope it’s ok
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“... and then on top of all that, m...my f-friend said...” the words spill out of your mouth in a jumbled mess, sobs taking over your body and overriding your rant.
“sssh, it’s okay baby, it’s okay,” haechan pulls you into a protective embrace, gently rocking you back and forth while you let all your frustration and sadness from the day’s horrible events spill out of your body. he strokes the crown of your head, featherlight fingers moving through your strands.
“i’m sorry,” you whisper with a sniff, “i’m being ridiculous, and childish, and...”
“hey,” he interrupts you, frowning as he leans away slightly. “hey, look at me.”
when you lift your head to make eye contact, his heart feels heavy at the sight of your watery eyes.
“don’t ever say that shit again, you hear me?”
a look of confusion drapes over your face at the sudden firmness in his tone. as you tilt your head to the side almost like a puppy, he sighs, running a hand through his hair in an aggravated manner.
“listen! you’re... you’re such an amazing person who deserves all the good in this world but you just.... i don’t know! you keep making yourself small to please other people and it pisses me off! fuck,” he mutters the last words to himself, frustration evident on his features. “i just.... i know it’s not your fault. i know. and i’m not upset with you i promise,” at this, he moves to lean against the headboard of your bed, reaching out to pull you in closer.
“i just want to give you everything you deserve.” his words are merely a whisper now, sending shivers down your spine with their raw and genuine emotion. wiping at your eyes, you take haechan’s hand and position yourself on his lap, head snuggled on his chest.
“thank you, haechan,” you murmur, his arms enveloping you in a warm embrace. you briefly lift your head off his chest, long enough to press a small kiss to his chin before resuming your previous position, letting his heartbeats lull you to a peaceful slumber.