his mood is contagious and he's always able to bring a smile on your face no matter how cranky you are that day
also will not hesitate to have deep discussions about seemingly insignificant or mundane topics
like once he called you at 2am asking if you think worms have feelings and while it is very adorable it is two in the morning and you have class at 8!!!!!
the type to take out one of his earphones and give it to you without a word when sitting next to you on a train or car ride, or on the couch, anytime really
just has to be physically near you at all times
just has to be physically near you at all times
confident on the outside but actually very soft and blushy
loves when you compliment or hype him up but will never admit it
he's not as sly as he thinks though so you quickly catch on
and of course compliment him at any chance you get
really values genuineness. will probably be a little reserved before getting to know you
but once you become close.... this boy does not stay quiet for long
but you don't mind, because there is not one dull moment with him by your side
110% the type to gift you a big bear plushie for "when he's not there to keep you company"
will relentlessly tease you when he sees it on your bed when you facetime but also loves it so much his heart Might just explode
also the type to insist u get matching tattoos just for you to go first and he chickens out
now you're the only one who got the tattoo so it doesn't make any sense because you decided on some inside joke that would only be completed when you held them side by side
"sorry but it looked so scary!!!! there are NEEDLES!!" "HOW DID YOU THINK A TATTOO WAS MADE?????"
it's okay though, he pouted his way out of trouble as usual
competes with you about who is doing any chore. take out the trash? rock paper scissors. pay for dinner? two rounds of super smash. but if you genuinely weren't in the mood he would no questions asked do your chore for you even if you lost
always the one to suggest horror movies but ends up hiding behind a blanket for half the time
"we can switch movie if you're scared haechan" "i'm not scared!!!!!!! it's just really cold in here!!" "mhm, you sure?" "yes, now cuddle me!!!!! yknow, for more heat"
looks at you very!!! fondly!!! whenever you talk about something you're passionate about
i think this is something he does with all people who are special to him so obviously you're no exception
lets himself into your house/apartment and you nearly get a heart attack coming out of the shower seeing him on your couch watching tv
a lot of "this you" [points at weird drawing in textbook] and playfighting
LOTS of playfighting, pillowfights etc
mario kart tournaments well into the night which only end because his upstairs neighbor comes banging on your door all it's three in the morning if you kids don't turn it down i will call the cops!!
which makes you quiet down before you start giggling hysterically
he catches on and you two have to lie down from laughing so hard, eventually realizing how sleepy you both are and before you know it you're asleep side by side on his couch. grabs hold of your waist so you don't fall off because that couch is Tiny
very thoughtful. will do small acts of kindness without much thought that make ur heart go :((((
like when he got you the biggest container of a snack you offhandedly mentioned loving as a kid like four months ago and one day he's just like "hey i forgot to give this to you" and you're just like?????? you remembered???:((
overall very soft and cute, confident but also a bit fragile... please take care of him</3
did not mean for this to be angsty but i hope it’s ok
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“... and then on top of all that, m...my f-friend said...” the words spill out of your mouth in a jumbled mess, sobs taking over your body and overriding your rant.
“sssh, it’s okay baby, it’s okay,” haechan pulls you into a protective embrace, gently rocking you back and forth while you let all your frustration and sadness from the day’s horrible events spill out of your body. he strokes the crown of your head, featherlight fingers moving through your strands.
“i’m sorry,” you whisper with a sniff, “i’m being ridiculous, and childish, and...”
“hey,” he interrupts you, frowning as he leans away slightly. “hey, look at me.”
when you lift your head to make eye contact, his heart feels heavy at the sight of your watery eyes.
“don’t ever say that shit again, you hear me?”
a look of confusion drapes over your face at the sudden firmness in his tone. as you tilt your head to the side almost like a puppy, he sighs, running a hand through his hair in an aggravated manner.
“listen! you’re... you’re such an amazing person who deserves all the good in this world but you just.... i don’t know! you keep making yourself small to please other people and it pisses me off! fuck,” he mutters the last words to himself, frustration evident on his features. “i just.... i know it’s not your fault. i know. and i’m not upset with you i promise,” at this, he moves to lean against the headboard of your bed, reaching out to pull you in closer.
“i just want to give you everything you deserve.” his words are merely a whisper now, sending shivers down your spine with their raw and genuine emotion. wiping at your eyes, you take haechan’s hand and position yourself on his lap, head snuggled on his chest.
“thank you, haechan,” you murmur, his arms enveloping you in a warm embrace. you briefly lift your head off his chest, long enough to press a small kiss to his chin before resuming your previous position, letting his heartbeats lull you to a peaceful slumber.
the way he saw it, he had two options: one, confess the feelings he’s kept hidden, locked away in a corner of his heart, for years, potentially making you run away with the last of his dignity while his heart breaks into a million tiny pieces, leaving him to spend years trying to pick them up and piece them together again, BUT with the chance that you could feel the same way.... or two, push the feelings even further down his chest, maybe putting up another lock or two to keep them sealed away, an option which did have the benefit of keeping the risk of you running away at a minimum, but likely at the cost of his sanity.
his eyes scanned the room that was full to the walls with people; seniors enjoying their last weekend of freedom before finals begin, freshmen standing in corners looking like deer caught in headlights, a few grad students chatting on the couch in the living room.... and you. haechan’s eyes were pulled to you like a magnet, finding you standing among a group of your friends, laughing at what was presumably a joke cracked by mark who was sitting on the edge of an abandoned beer pong table on your left.
your eyes looked up, as if they had felt his on you, sending him one of your signature smiles that sent a warm rush through his entire body, making him feel both weak in the knees and like he could sprint a marathon all at once. the feeling traveled from haechan’s head to his toes, making his heart overflow with bubbling emotions that were going to spill over any minute now.
haechan mirrored your smile and started taking shaky but determined steps towards you. he had decided. the truth was that he wouldn’t mind all the pain in the world if it meant he could see you smile at him like that just one more time.
“hi,” he breathed, standing close enough to smell your shampoo, paying no attention to the rest of your friends. “can we go outside for a second? i have something i really want to tell you.”
