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“Lost”

Now you’re lost Lost in the heat of it all Girl you know you’re lost Lost in the thrill of it all Miami, Amsterdam Tokyo, Spain, lost Los Angeles, India Lost on a train, lost

Ten days ago,

I fantasized about suicide

For the first time

In a long time–

It’s become unclear to me

What exactly I am supposed to be doing

With this gift God gave me,

Because it seems

That the one thing I’m great at

Just isn’t good enough

And that frightens me–

Not only because it’s all I have,

But because it’s all I want–

Or at least I thought so,

Until I contemplated the thought of losing you

In lieu of it,

And now

I’m not so sure what’s important

Anymore.