#ghosttxtposting

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I just went a little crazy and bought 50 envelopes that can fit my watercolours inside. Gonna need to do more painting and find people to send them to lmao.

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I should rewatch in space with markiplier and get devastated again

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I keep having the urge and drive to paint the character of someone who hates me and has blocked me and I don't know what to do about it. I'm not sure I'm healing from this old ex-friendship by doing that but it also feels a little nice to paint them.

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It's really a little sad when you go in your archives, look up people you used to reblog from a few years ago all the time and see that they haven't posted anything in a year or two. That explains why I don't see them anymore but also, oh friend how I miss you. You used to be part of my daily life and now you are but a memory.

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There truly is a hierarchy beteween mental illnesses. There are the ones that are accepted and that people agree that you should be understanding. And then you have personality disorders where actually you are totally in control of everything you say and do and you are evil for all of them and you will never change actually and no one should be your friend.

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Might be time for my bi-monthly rewatch of CJ's video on Bo Burham

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Me, staring at my art paper : you started this, you wanted to do this. This is not bad it just takes time. You can do it, you can be patient. Yes it's very hot inside but you can do it. Remember, it was YOUR idea

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Working on something that I can already tell is going to take me hours and I will want to give up on. But maybe if I listen to the music enough and keep the quote in mind I'll manage to keep going