To @cruria
From @cadencekismet
let me count the ways – / or shrink to a phrase like an epitaph
title from “The Love Poem” by Carol Ann Duffy
Yuuri couldn’t take his eyes off of the ghost hound. She had appeared nearly a week ago, lurking around his family’s inn. Vicchan had been one thing. He had been so small. Yuuri used to carry him in his arms. This one looked almost as big as Makkachin.
Even now he couldn’t take his eyes off of her where she sat beside him.
Christophe answered his call. “Yuuri.” As always, the man purred his name like he was trying to lure Yuuri to bed.
Yuuri smiled. “Christophe. I- I thought maybe you might know something about ghost hounds? Mine got-” It was still difficult to talk about Vicchan. “He was run over by a carriage near midwinter last year” – during their competition – “but there’s a new ghost hound here who’s been following me around since I came home. I’ve never had a strange hound be so friendly.” Yuuri tilted the flat disc of magic he held between his palms so Chris could see the spectral beast beside him.
“I- Yuuri, that’s Makkachin.” Chris slumped. “Thank goodness. Viktor’s with you?”
Yuuri snorted. “Don’t be absurd, Chris. Why would Viktor be here? And Makkachin never leaves Viktor’s side. She’s famous for it.” The hound bounced up and placed her paws on the roll of fat just above Yuuri’s hips when he said the name. She was heavier than Vicchan, even like this.
Yuuri looked back at Christophe. “Viktor is missing?”
Now that he was looking, he could see the stress lines on the other man’s forehead and around his mouth.
“People are looking for him, right?”
Chris pressed his lips together. “He’s Viktor.” And then, “He disappeared last week. I’m staying in his apartment and watching Yuri while Yakov and Lilia look for him, but. They haven’t gotten much.” There were always jealousies directed towards those on top. If someone didn’t find him soon, Viktor could slide away forever.
Yuuri nodded to himself. “I’ll be there tomorrow. Where’s the nearest materialization point? Makkachin will track him better from there. I assume there are relics of him in the apartment?”
Lilia was a strong witch. If she didn’t have a trail after a week, Viktor couldn’t want to be found. He’d sent his ghost hound away. He hadn’t told anyone that he was leaving.
Outside, snow began to cover the pink blossoms on the trees. Yuuri packed his bags quickly. He would borrow a horse in Petersburg, if he and Makkachin picked up a trail. (They had to pick up a trail.) Yuuri’s magic was inconsistent – anxiety made him doubt himself, and that weakened the spells – but he was better at finding magics than the fiddly artsy spells they used in competition, and he had the stamina to keep the pointing spells up even while he was asleep. He never wasted time travelling in the wrong direction after something.
He had been thinking of retirement since Midwinter. He could become a guide for the guests at his parents’ inn, and he could quietly fade out of sight. The final few moons of his apprenticeship hadn’t suggested anything different, but he’d been planning to press on anyway. He hated to fail in front of the crowd, but he loved to prove his mastery in front of them. It was ironic that this was how he didn’t go back.
All the Masters looking for apprentices would be booked after next week’s fair. But Viktor had inspired years of magic in Yuuri. It was only fair that Yuuri seize this chance to pay him back while he could.
Painting competitions were beautiful. Yuuri was nine when he fell in love. He loved to observe the ways different Painters worked with their elements in different ways. His friend Phichit was a water witch like Viktor. Phichit’s Painting burbled in waves and waterfalls in the air. Yuuri worked in earth. He Painted dreamy pictures in earthy tones out of the dust and mud and rock dust in the area. On the other hand, Otabek, new to the senior division, had eschewed the traditional subtlety of earth witches and opted for bolder strokes. Yuuri could cover the entrance to the arena with unbroken wall and no one would know that it was there. Otabek could erase himself, or the ground you stood on. He could Paint something deep underground and Paint a hole so you could see it.
Chris and Yuri’s fellow apprentice Mila were fire witches, but while you could warm yourself at Mila’s Painting, Chris’s was designed to draw viewers in like moths. Young Yuri Plisetsky created amazing fire illusions, the sort that would scorch anyone who tried to get too close. Air witches were the rarest. Well done, Painting with air magic was unparalleled, but many air witches were unimaginative. Sara and Mickey, twins on the circuit, were both air witches, but while Sara could spin delicate mirages and even Paint scents into her Paintings, Mickey’s Paintings were all vortexes designed to “chase off the boys. They’re like hyenas going after Sara.”
Viktor worked in the most delicate of ice crystals. The first time Yuuri had huddled around the viewing ball and watched Viktor Paint the arena, he’d known that this was the only thing he wanted to do. Viktor had been breathtaking. Yuuri had spent years hoping to someday meet the other man as his equal. Instead, of course, he had gotten the news about Vicchan in the middle of the competition and crashed and burned so shamefully he thought he might never get over it.
There was a squawk from Yuuri’s left as he stepped through the portal from the materialization point into Viktor’s home. Makkachin bounded in beside him. He turned, already panicking. He didn’t know why he’d thought any of this would be easy. Sure enough, there stood the Russian Yuri, arms crossed over his chest and a scowl on his face. A pale, semi-translucent dragon slumped on his shoulders, half hidden behind the curtain of hair. The boy turned to Christophe and snarled.
“This is who you thought could help?” He flapped a hand at Yuuri dismissively. “He can’t even Paint a simple picture without fading half of it so you can barely see it. He can’t even do the top of his Painting without falling out of the air and smudging it.”
Yuri Plisetsky was an autodidact. He’d been discovered in some backwater of Moscow, Painting graffiti over building facades. His grandfather was friends with Yakov, so rumor went, and got him an audience, but everyone who saw the boy Paint knew he’d earned the apprenticeship himself. He’d started young, too. People called him The Punk, although his signature on pieces was always Dragon. He had found Yuuri trying to hide by the latrines after the Midwinter games. Had snarled at him to retire and become a hedgewitch, since that was clearly all he was good for. One Yuri was enough, and Yuuri needn’t stick around any longer to sully their name.
Yuri ought to be glad that Yuuri would have no choice but to retire now.
Yuuri sighed and answered for Chris. “Makkachin came to me. And I may sometimes miss the technical points in Painting, but I grew up Tracking. If anyone can find him, I can.”
Yuri sized him up. “Take me with you. You might need… I know him. You need me or Chris.”
Yuuri glanced at Chris, who smiled and shook his head ever so slightly. “You’d kill to blend your colors half as well as Yuuri, or place the accents as skillfully. And Lilia said to keep you here. If she comes back and you and I aren’t both here she’ll eat me alive. We’re staying. I don’t think Yuuri will have any trouble bringing Viktor back if he finds him.”
Yuuri glanced at Makkachin. He wished he had half of Chris’s confidence.
Yuri was still watching him, his green eyes sharp. He stepped into Yuuri’s personal space. In spite of that, his voice was loud when he spoke. “Look, if you’re going alone, there are things you need to know. He left you the dumb mutt, so he wasn’t planning to come back.” He glanced around the room. “I don’t think anyone kidnapped him. I think the idiot kidnapped himself.” Yuuri hadn’t even considered a kidnapping. It was just possible that someone might get the jump on Viktor so thoroughly that he couldn’t Paint himself an escape route in a week or that someone might manage to separate him from Makkachin. Not both.
He trudged through the dark and the grey. He had let his horse loose outside the city, to help throw Yakov off his trail. For the rest, he used mirrored ice crystals. They would hide him from anyone looking. The snow smoothed over behind him. He didn’t know where he was going except away. (After- but after it wouldn’t matter who found him.) Already, the ice crystals were sinking into his skin. It glittered when he moved his hand, the only way he could tell it was there. After he turned to ice he would thaw. Uncontrolled, he would melt away. The only trace left to find would be his coat and scarf on the snow.
When he was young, Viktor had met a hedgewitch and he had bartered away his happiness for glory. He’d thought the trade a bargain. With glory would come triumph, and what was triumph but joy? It turned out that glory was nothing but grey without his happiness. Since Midwinter, even the grey was leaching out of his world, until Viktor had decided that if the world was going to fade snow-white, he would fade with it. (There were cursebreakers who could help. They would teach you how to fool the curse and to Paint the world for yourself. Viktor was too tired to fight. Fading seemed easier.)
Yuuri left early the following morning on a shaggy bay pony. A rangy chestnut trailed along behind for Viktor when they found him. Makkachin bounced ahead. Yuuri dismounted at the city limits and dug in his pocket for the relic he and Chris had chosen.
He was just tying Viktor’s hair back to the comb, now tightly braided in its single strands, when there was noise behind them. Makkachin bounded over to the newcomers.
Yuuri pretended not to notice them until he finished tying it off and tapped the comb to the earth. There Viktor was, half a week’s ride ahead. He kept that connection as he turned to the teenagers.
Yuri’s chin jutted out. “We’re coming. Otabek can hide us, and Potya will keep us warm at night.”
The connection to Viktor wavered and Yuuri scowled and concentrated until it steadied again.
Yuri waited impatiently. “Lilia has been teaching me to draw scents.” Only air witches could work in scent. Yuuri couldn’t think of a single reason why Yuri would pretend to be a fire witch when he wasn’t. Yuri sneered at him like he knew what Yuuri was thinking. Yuuri decided that he was just happy to have left fifteen far behind him.
Yuuri would travel faster without them, but if he sent them back now there was no way Yuri would return. Maybe he would need Yuri to help convince Viktor to return. They clearly knew each other.
Yuuri sighed. “Did you bring horses?”
Otabek smiled. “They’re even our horses.”
Yuri turned to his friend with a scowl and Yuuri laughed.
Although Yuuri was the only one who knew where they were going he let Makkachin lead them and took up the rear. Otabek didn’t seem put off by Yuri’s antagonism. Instead, they rode in a companionable silence so practiced and comfortable that it expanded to include Yuuri. He was shocked to find out that they had just met.
“Otabek’s Master has been helping me while Yakov is off looking for Viktor.” Yuri scowled and ducked his head so that his bangs curtained his eyes. Yuuri wondered if there was a reason so many of Yakov’s students used the trick.
Potya spent most of the day perched on Yuri’s shoulders. She would huddle under his loose hair, more visible in the lump she created there than when she flew beside him like an ice crystal against the snow.
All of them protested when Yuuri called a halt for the night, even Makkachin, who strained to look into the wind for a long minute before circling back around to sulk at the base of the cliff by the horses. Yuuri crossed his arms against Yuri and Potya’s matching belligerent stares and Otabek’s frown.
“The horses need rest and so do we. This is the first point where we’ve had any real protection from the wind in hours.”
Yuri’s fists clenched and unclenched. “And Viktor? What if he doesn’t have shelter?”
Yuuri couldn’t think about that. “He’s a good three day ride away. Riding on wouldn’t get us there any sooner.”
He moved slower as the ice sank in. His limbs creaked if he tried to step too far. His breath puffed out in little snow showers from his mouth. His stomach growled. The ice still hadn’t sunk very far. Maybe his lips were solid ice now but his teeth were cold and chattering from the ice in front of them. He just wanted to sleep.
Yuuri noticed it near the beginning of the third day riding (he prayed to any gods listening that they would catch up to Viktor, if not tomorrow then the day after. The other Painter was moving much too slowly. Yuuri was worried sick about him) Otabek turned to ask Yuri a question and just caught him as he lurched half out of his saddle.
Yuuri trotted up on his other side, even as Yuri batted his friend away. “I told you last night Otabek. I’m fine!”
“So fine you nearly fell off your horse?” Otabek looked unimpressed.
Yuuri frowned at their youngest companion. He looked exhausted. “What have you been doing?”
Yuri snarled. There were tears in his eyes (he was clearly exhausted. Yuuri kicked himself inwardly for not noticing earlier). “I’m hiding our scent. Someone keeps trying to draw it. I’m fine.”
Yuuri couldn’t think of any air witches with any business following them. “You’ve tied it away and they’re still drawing it?”
It took nearly twenty minutes of Yuuri digging up half-forgotten descriptions Minako had given him of the method she used to stop people following her before Yuri managed it. Privately, Yuuri resolved to buy Minako some good vodka before he returned home.
By nightfall Yuri had needed to retie their scent three times.
Yuuri scowled back into the night. “Who would be following us? Lilia is a water witch, right?” Everyone knew Lilia Baranovskaya was a water witch. Yakov and Georgi were fire witches.
Yuri shrugged sullenly. “The hag’s probably got her girlfriend trying to find us.” He sat against a tree and hid a yawn.
Yuuri had a terrible thought. “Did you stay up all night last night Yuri?”
Yuri didn’t bother answering.
Otabek met Yuuri’s gaze and winced.
Yuuri sighed. “And who’s the hag?”
Otabek answered for his friend. “Mila Babicheva. Her girlfriend is Sara Crispino.”
Yuuri hesitated. “And will they try to stop you from coming to bring Viktor home, Yuri?”
The boy shrugged. “I don’t want to play probability with Viktor’s life if you don’t mind.”
Yuuri sighed. “Well I’m not taking any risks with your life either. Either you sleep tonight or I’ll leave you here in the morning for them to find. I won’t have you falling off your horse.”
He hoped it wasn’t obvious what an empty threat it was. Yuri scowled.
“Stupid old man, dragging us all out here and making us worry. When we find him I’m going to tell him exactly what I think of him.”
“He’s disappeared himself into a blizzard already. Don’t you think he’s been punished enough?”
“No,” Yuri snapped, and turned over so his back was to Yuuri and Otabek. In minutes, he was asleep.
Yuuri woke to a string of angry Russian curses. There was a portal closing on the ashes of their fire. Yuuri was on his feet and between the newcomers and Yuri and Otabek before he recognized them. He relaxed slightly.
“Do you know how dangerous it is to walk through an unbraced portal?” He frowned at Mila and Sara. “I don’t suppose you at least had someone else open it at the other end?” The remains of their portal sparked at the edges as the fire caught it and burned it away. Yuuri suppressed a sigh. A balanced portal – even a one-sided one – wouldn’t burn like that.
Sara flushed and reached to remove the oxygen from their fire before it burned through the portal and started a fire wherever they had been. Yuri tsked and closed a fist over their portal. It disappeared.
He scowled at Yuuri. “If you hadn’t made me go to sleep this would never have happened.”
Yuuri sighed. “Are you going to try to take him back?” He moved so he was still between Yuri and Mila. “I don’t really know Viktor. If he sent Makkachin away I might need someone else who knows him better than I do to get him back.”
Mila shook her head. “Of course not. We’re coming too.” She frowned at Yuri. “He’s my fellow apprentice too.”
Yuri had the grace to look ashamed.
“What about horses?” Otabek spoke for the first time. “We didn’t bring spares.” He glanced at the chestnut Yuuri had brought for Viktor.
Sara smiled. “That’s what I’m here for. Well, aside from drawing your scent for tracking.” She raised her hands and twisted. Two strands of wind detached themselves and knotted into horse shapes, visible only because of the powdery snow. One of them snorted, sounding like the wind whipping around the eaves of a house at night. Yuuri looked at the Russian boy. He had turned to saddle up his own horse. Yuuri shrugged and turned to his own horse.
Having Mila and Sara along changed the dynamic of the day’s ride. While Yuri and Otabek had mostly ridden in silence or amused themselves, Mila and Sara liked to talk. They teased Yuri, who yelled at them without looking very angry. Otabek and Yuuri mostly stayed out of it.
“It was very thoughtful of you to come help Yuuri find Viktor, Yuri.”
“Shut up, Baba! Like I was going to wait months for Yakov to get tired of looking and come back. It just made sense to go with Katsuki and Makkachin.”
“What?! That old geezer?” Yuri squawked.
“I think it’s nice that you care for your fellow apprentices,” Otabek said mildly.
Yuri’s wordless vocalizations died while he tried to figure out whether Otabek was making fun.
Mila turned to Yuuri with a wicked grin. “And what about you, lover boy?”
Yuuri flushed. It wasn’t like it was any sort of guilty reaction. He just flushed easily. It was probably being addressed by these two strange and self-assured witches. They were both excellent Painters, and…
“It wasn’t very kind of you to drop off the face of the earth after last Midwinter. No one knew where you’d gone, you weren’t at any competitions…” She looked serious.
“I wasn’t qualified for any competitions,” Yuuri snapped. “I don’t suppose you’d have noticed, but I sort of crashed and burned.”
“Oh,” Sara smirked. “We noticed. You didn’t seem to mind at the Midwinter banquet though.” Sara hadn’t seemed the sort to be cruel on purpose.
Yuuri sighed and buried his face in his hands. His bay horse plodded on. He lifted his head. “It’s not an excuse, but my hound had just died. I-”
The trail to Viktor shivered and thinned. Yuuri broke off and fumbled in his saddlebag for the comb, dropping to the ground and tapping it against the ground three times. The connection steadied, but when he picked it up again two of the white blond hairs were nothing but frost. Yuuri felt a shiver run up his spine.
He still thought that they would make it to Viktor by nightfall, but he’d never had a tracking trail threaten to disappear that way before. He considered the hairs. Two of the three braids were still fine. He careful untangled the third and turned to Mila.
“I’m going to try to do a binding spell. I don’t know what he’s doing, but I’m not sure he’ll still be there when we get there otherwise. One of you hold Makkachin still so I can pluck some hairs?”
“Don’t you think it would be stronger with hair from a person Viktor likes?” Yuri was frowning at him like Yuuri was doing something inexplicable.
Yuuri hesitated. “I didn’t… You or Mila?”
Mila and Sara giggled. Even steady Otabek was hiding a smirk. Yuri was exasperated. “I was talking about you, dummy.”
“I…” Yuuri stared. “Viktor probably doesn’t even know my name.”
Both of Yakov’s apprentices dropped their heads into their hands. Sara threw her hands in the air and nearly lost control of her wind horses.
Otabek looked at Yuuri, his voice mild. “He sent Makkachin to you. Midwinter may have just been drowning your sorrow in the nearest pretty face for you, but I feel certain it was more than that for Viktor.”
Sara got her horses under control. Mila let go of the mane of her horse.
Yuuri swallowed. “Sorry. I think… I must be missing.” He took a slow breath. “What did I do while I was drunk last Midwinter?”
Yuri lifted his face to stare at him accusingly. “You don’t remember? What are you even doing here if you don’t- tch!” He kicked his horse into a trot. “I’m going to find Viktor.”
Yuuri glanced at the rest of them and then trotted after Yuri.
Yuuri managed to tie the braid of his own hair around the frosty braid of Viktor’s. It wasn’t easy on a trotting horse, but he didn’t want to ask Yuri to slow down. The sooner they were there, the better. He wasn’t even sure that the charm he’d added would do anything. He spurred the horse faster.
The ice was getting thicker. Soon, he wouldn’t be able to move at all. That was ok though. He was getting numb. It was getting harder to think. Soon, the ice would be so thick that he would freeze solid and then melt with the thaw and run off in rivulets into the river. He hoped it might be peaceful. The lazy stagnant summer river looked peaceful enough. Suddenly, the ice stopped thickening. He would have blinked if his eyelids hadn’t frozen days ago. It was almost more effort than he could contemplate to start the freezing again. The ice began again, more slowly than before.
They almost rode right past him. Yuri was leading the group at a brisk trot and Yuuri was preoccupied with his galloping fears. Whatever he had done dead-drunk at Midwinter must have been embarrassing and awful, but that offered his panicked mind a wide range of possibilities. Anything seemed plausible. Had he offered to beat Chris at Painting the way he was rumored to Paint when alone – with a different limb in use as the brush – or latched onto Viktor Nikiforov and sobbed over Vicchan without exchanging a word with the near-stranger? Either seemed as likely as anything else.
The thread leading to Viktor had not firmed as they approached. Instead, and contrary to any usual rules, it had continued to thin and flicker all day. The funk Yuuri was in hadn’t helped, and he blamed his emotional weakness (couldn’t even hold himself together to save Viktor! Pathetic) until the evening light bouced strangely through the ice in a snow drift, throwing a thin arc of a rainbow off an odd angle. Yuuri looked more carefully, then halted to stare.
Yuri turned and opened his mouth to yell at Yuuri for stopping before he realized what they were seeing. He went white.
“How do we- Can he be reversed?”
Yuuri dismounted, dazed. He wished for another water witch. Phichit would have come if Yuuri had thought to ask. He hadn’t even considered that they might need to unravel whatever Viktor had done to avoid being found. Would a water witch have any more idea how to stop this or undo it? Was it even possible?
Yuuri fisted his gloved hand around the reins until he could feel the edges of the cheap leather through the sturdy glove. Then he grabbed the fingers of the right hand glove in his mouth and pulled it off, letting it drop in the snow.
Could they even figure out what Viktor had done?
Yuuri could still feel the flickering connection to the ice sculpture that had been Viktor. He pulled his reins over the pony’s head to hold him where they dropped and stepped forward across the snow.
Makkachin, whined and lurked near the wind horses Sara and Mila rode.
Mila’s voice shook. “I’ll call Yakov. We can bring him home and thaw him out.”
“Idiot.” Yuri was scathing but Yuuri could hear the fear in his voice. “He’s ice. Who’s to say that if you melt him he turns to anything but a puddle of water on Yakov’s carpet.”
Mila’s voice was sharp, the way Mari’s had gone when Yuuri tracked a customer of their inn right into a blizzard, though Yuuri couldn’t say which fellow apprentice she was that close to. Maybe both.
“And what would you recommend, if you’re so smart?”
Yuuri took the last step towards Viktor. He unthreaded the hair from the comb – Viktor’s hair, Yuuri’s, the frost, all of it – and lifted his hand, following the pull of that invisible tracking thread.
There had been a time he’d run into Viktor in the hallway of an inn at a Painting competition. Viktor was always kind to his competitors. He’d asked Yuuri about his technique and the dreamy way that his Painting that day had come out.
Chris told stories sometimes – not to Yuuri, exactly, but near Yuuri, as if he knew Yuuri was interested and too shy to ask – about his friendship with Viktor. The way they dared each other to try new foods wherever they went, but Viktor had never let on if there were any he wasn’t delighted by, the impish pleasure he seemed to get out of teasing Chris and Yuri and Yakov.
Yuuri had watched Viktor one day, bright and smiling and dangerous as he crushed JJ, a fellow water witch, with his flat cheerful disregard.
Yuuri caught Viktor’s icy hand in his own bare one, linking their fingers and clasping the thin braids between them. Bodies were of the earth. He breathed gingerly, as if it could shatter Viktor to breathe with insufficient care, and thought of everything he knew of the man. The man, not the legend.
Ice prince, they called him. He felt a hot line across his palm, and then someone took him by the hand, the way his mothers used to when he was small. They drew him back, and Viktor felt the hard shell of ice on him thin, then crack away.
Yuuri didn’t dare to look at Viktor or the others, afraid. Instead, he concentrated on the little he knew of Viktor – his devotion to his hound, the flair of his early Paintings, the one he’d perfected last fall that spoke to Yuuri in his bones – until the hand in his pulled up and lips touched his knuckles.
Yuuri blinked, and lifted his chin to stare at the silver-haired Painter. “Yuri?” He lifted his voice so that it would cut across the squabbling that continued between Viktor’s worried fellow apprentices. “I take it all back. Call him whatever names you like on the way home. He clearly hasn’t been paying any attention.”
He glanced behind him in time to see Yuri turn and freeze. Otabek followed Yuri’s gaze and his shoulders slumped in relief.
“Viktor! You ridiculous idiot.”
Mila reached over and wrapped her arms around Sara, pulling her girlfriend to her until she could hide her face in the other girl’s shoulder.
Makkachin interrupted whatever Yuri had been planning to screech at them next by running full tilt to knock them both over.