hi! autistic csa survivor here <3 theres a BIG difference between a healthy coping mechanism and posting and interacting with incest/cp online
we're aware that, like. yeah this shit is in fiction but it needs to be portrayed in a negative light like. theres a reason i have TRAUMA from csa........
im begging you go to therapy /gen
I am in therapy. This is genuinely how I cope. I work very hard with my therapist to make sure that this way I cope doesn’t actually negatively affect me. It doesn’t. Just because it’s unhealthy for others doesn’t mean it’s unhealthy for everyone. This allows me to explore my trauma and put it into a different perspective (such as a romanticized view, this can help put the trauma you went through into perspective) safely, rather than going out and putting myself in harmful relationships.
CP is harmful because it involves a real, breathing child who is being hurt. Anime girls and cartoons that are clearly cartoons aren’t children who can be hurt. I feel insulted that what I went through is being compared to anime girls.
My autism and depression disables me from being able to make my own private art, which is why published fanworks are important for me, it is often my only access of this content. I’m a writer and artist, but my frustration with those hobbies and my lack of motivation… it makes people sharing their own work essential.
There are other coping mechanisms. This mechanism isn’t a do or die for me, but it is the most effective one my therapist and I have found. Redirecting horrible intrusive thoughts I have about real people onto fictional characters WORKS. It’s not for everyone, I’m sure it has the opposite effect for a lot of people, but I’m not everyone, I’m a single person.
Seeing what I went through out in a positive FICTIONAL light helps me process my trauma because it forces my subconscious to go “well, shit, if this is what good looks like, then what happened DEFINITELY wasn’t good”. That’s overly simplified, but that’s the gist of it.
Outside of coping mechanism talk, censorship is just a slippery slope. Moral lines are blurred when it comes to very small things like the line between romantically charged and sexually charged, and it starts with censoring fictional problematic content.
Telling people to get therapy helps no one. Not only have I said several times I’m in therapy, it’s clearly just a ploy to seem morally superior. “I just want you to get help!” they say, ignoring the fact that what I’m doing IS the help. I share my problematic content when I am able to make it because I know others who need it but can’t make it themselves are out there.
I’m only bothering to respond to your ask because I feel like you have good intentions, and I feel like maybe my aggression in my other posts made it harder to listen to me. I get that. I find it harder to listen to people who are angry too.
I’ve just lost my temper because I’m tired of being told what’s good for me. Being told what’s going on in MY mind and MY brain and how I process MY trauma.