so the fan already asked the question: "I mean I know I always joke around about not really liking calum but honestly, he means so much to me. I like to think that whenever I'm faced with any kind of problem, or hate, I'm all tough and strong, right? but in reality, my body and thoughts are riddled with depression and anxiety, every step I take nearly threatening to quake my very existence.
I was paralyzed in that part of my life for as long as I could remember. Not really dead, but not really living either. And pardon me if I sound like some overtold romance novel, but he walked in and just wouldn't have it. He wouldn't let me waste away into some mindless drone. Loving him was never butterflies and anxiety overwhelming passion like it's always told. No, because I didn't just find someone I connected with, I found my home.Loving him wasn't fast and sloppy and passionate fights (not that that's bad), it was calm and collected. I was at ease in his arms and I've never held something so precious. I'd never had someone that was so patient and understood that hey took place of an actual house, the natural symbol of a home. And of course I can stand considerably long amounts of time away from my home, and I still get waves of missing him, like one does when away from theirs too long, but I know that he's still there.