continued for @glowslikegolds from here !
teddy's always been a bit of a menace. he liked obsession. he liked need, and desire, and corruption. that had always been easier to hold than anything like care or romance or importance. he's always fashioned himself into impermanence. but cooper didn't let him do it. he asked him on a date and wouldn't fuck him before taking him out. that always kind of screwed up his issues. well– always is a strong word. he hadn't dated seriously in years.
but if THIS was what commitment felt like, maybe teddy had it all wrong. because all of this shit that he refuses to name, all of the things he refuses to be, have never been the types of things he wants as much as he wants this.
cooper's mouth maps everywhere across him, and he wants to commit the feeling to memory. it's better than he could have imagined. obviously. there's nothing quite like the feeling of being wanted. nothing makes him as crazy or as desperate as worship. and every time cooper buries himself in him, teddy's PRETTY SURE that's as close as he'll ever get to salvation.
his hands curl beneath the edge of the jersey, but coopers voice vibrates at the shell of his ear, low and desperate. the primal, animalistic urge that writes itself into cooper's features and settles in his voice, is enough to drive teddy crazy. rhythmless need, broken groans, everything stirs him on faster. and all he seeks is relief. every nerve is on edge, white hot desire explodes behind his eyes, and he wants so badly. the way he commands is enough to shift something within him. he wants more than he has ever known how to ask for. it's desperate. it's needy. it's wanton.
he follows along with cooper's direction, succumbing to handling like it makes the most sense in the world. god – he WANTS to fall apart like this. hips grasped in calloused hands, back arched and a hand in his hair, and the thickness in the air sits against his skin like it's everything he's ever wanted.
his hair is sweat slicked to his neck, and the way his fingers tangle in teddy's hair feels holy. his heart is hammering against his chest, and worship is best done on his knees, right ?? so who said his knees couldn't meant cheek pressed to the mattress, hair yanked back, and needier than he's ever felt in his life.
you look so fucking good like this. the praise buzzes through him, and his whole body tenses. nails raise rake across his back, and it pulls another in a series of broken moans straight from within him. "fuck–" his voice breaks and looses shape. "yeah– i – shit–" another moan, and his hips slam back as is to meet coopers motions. "i love it, cooper." another wanton noise rips through him. "i need you to claim me." another wanton noise parts his lips. "i need you – fuck – please –" he doesn't even know what he's asking for anymore. his head tends to run empty when he's like this. the only thing he can do is chase that edge, and hope cooper will catch him when he falls.