meta question: vi’s stance/thoughts on the fact that powder inadvertently murdered their entire found family in one night as time went on.
there's a few important points to consider around this. and a quick note: all links will be relevant and worth clicking.
first, family is sincerely everything to vi. the sum of her identity is wrapped up in being a big sister, in being an unfortunately parentified daughter, and no one canonically ever challenges her on this until it's far too late. you can see the genuine pain in her expression every single time she remembers home, or her family, and by family i mean any of them: her birth parents, vander, mylo, claggor, powder. all she grew up with and all she lost.
second, vi already lived through this once. she was old enough for the sight of her parents' bodies to leave lasting effects on her psychologically, and i do believe the experience not only played a huge role in driving her toward being the caretaker, the protector, but is also a key factor in why she developed so many issues with rage.
those same issues with rage that bring her to react the initial way she does: with violence. of course with violence. it's all she's known in zaun, all her childhood has ever been. dead parents, gang wars, fighting the local kids to show you won't be bullied, watching all the local adults fight each other in the streets, getting roughed up by passing enforcers who see zaunite children and think maybe they're up to something. vi blames and hits powder before she can think any better of it. because powder didn't listen, because powder set off a chain of events that just ruined both of their lives forever. for one minute, powder ruined everything, because vi had the hormones of a teenager, the out of control emotions that fresh (and old) trauma brings you, and nowhere else to put any of it.
she has to sit with it for a long time, because that's all she could really do in stillwater. and here's the thing: vi knows what she's always known, affords all the kids of zaun the small mercies she's never granted herself. powder was just a kid. when the heat burns out, and she's on the cold hard floor of a prison and doesn't have a single ally to her name, she knows that. powder didn't mean to do it. there's a thousand other people to blame. silco. vi herself.
but ... the heat isn't always turned down; sometimes it comes back, burning hot and furious all over again when she realizes she spent vander's next birthday in a cell underground and he spent it six feet deeper. sometimes powder's memory is the only thing keeping her going, driving her fists through silco's allies like a knife through butter, and other times vi is seventeen, eighteen, nineteen years old and she's still staring at the same walls and the same guards' faces and wondering if she'll ever get out of here, if she'll ever see the sky again, if only her sister had just fucking stayed home.
it's something that comes and goes, that kind of grief, that kind of rage. vi in her right mind doesn't blame powder, never really did outside that first trauma-driven impulse. but in her weaker, baser moments, it's tough to direct that anger she never properly learned how to channel in the first place, all the grief she never started much less finished processing. it's why we see her turn on her sister again, in season two, after jinx terrified her during the tea party scene and made her mentally buck free of powder's memory being tarnished by a sister who's still a murderer even today.
so, in short: technically, vi never truly blamed her, but technically, vi is also a candle who never really burns out about it; she's an inconsistent flame, flickering and sputtering in the wind, ready to roar to life the second something triggering fans that fire. and she'll always still be burning to some degree until she can finally work through any of the loads and loads of mishandled damage and unprocessed grief inside of her. but none of us will hold our breath on that.
general topics: childhood, parents, sibling, violet ( death & pregnancy loss tw )
vander was born an only child, but when he 5 he was going to finaly have a sibling. he was going to have a little sister. he was so excited. his parents' marriage wasn't perfect, how could it be. but he just knew things would get better with a little sister. he put all his hope into her. he made a list of all the things he'd teach her.
but towards the end of her pregnancy, vander's mother went into labor. even at 5 he could tell something was wrong. he'd been dismissed to his room while the adults 'dealt with it' and by the time he was allowed out, his family had reduced to just him and his father. his sister's name was going to be violet.
so when felicia is pregnant, and there is hope once flitting around a potential kid, he knew just what name he had to recommend.
THE CHILDISH DISRESPECT ISN'T ANYTHING NEW ; ANSWERING GAZE IS FLAT, UNIMPRESSED. an inhalation of breath takes you one step closer toward some higher level of maturity — then this upswing of your hand, effectively tossing her braid against her own tongue, takes you one tumbling step back down the hill of sibling rivalry. ❛ hey, don't eat that. you don't know where it's been. ❜
my favourite thing about your portrayal is the guarded peek into vi’s thought processes. it’s never completely clear like glass, but it’s enough to make your portrayal authentic and keep the audience feeling like a part of what’s going on. very on brand
heretic ,,,, you're such an angel for this tysm icb it <333 genuinely every compliment always means sm from you bc your blog remains one of my favorites in the rpc; i've caught myself going damn! more than once reading through your replies bc holy shit your way with words is not only enviable, but your jinx portrayal PERIOD is just that fantastic. i've told you this before, but my favorite thing about your jinx is still how well you execute the balance of her character that even the writers themselves sometimes get wrong. you know exactly when to play up her silly side, you Get how to execute her specific brand of comedy, and you know when to demonstrate her illnesses, her flaws, the saddest pieces of her. 11/10 would get jonxed again
feed king's gross ego & get fed in return / always accepting
eyebrow raises, taking a pointed step away at her sudden movement. ❛ i would prefer it if you refrained from such impulsive actions. ❜ he is aware, even before the words leave his mouth, that she will not. they are not yet well aquainted, but this much is obvious.
he nods, the dim light casting sharp angles across his face as he leans forward, curiosity blooming in his gaze. a chance to provoke, to encourage a driving answer. ❝ tell me, ❞ viktor muses, ❝ what does selfish mean to you ⸻ prioritizing yourself or disregarding others? ❞
* . ⊹ @gnpwder said ... so what if i'm selfish, everyone else is.
at his core, t'challa is a scientist. in his soul, he is a hopeless romantic. and in his spirit, he is a brother—to all of humanity. he comes from a lineage of defenders and survivors, bound by duty but driven by something cosmically deeper.
his path has taken him from the wakandan throne to the ghettos of harlem, where he dedicates working countless hours with his students. he sinks his claws into the colonial forces that plunder his continent, stripping it of its dignity. he has battled eldritch nightmares alongside earth's greatest heroes—and, at times, its villains. following his mother's dream, he has erected an intergalactic empire spanning over twenty planets and five solar systems.
destiny is a curious thing. he is devout to bast, wholeheartedly, yet he is not above challenging her designs. it is not beneath him to defy the expectations of his royal duties in favor of following his heart. he is a resilient fighter, a force that refuses to be confined—sometimes to the dismay of his enemies, and often, to the frustration of his own people.
the throne is an honor bestowed upon him by the sheer power of his will, yet, it can be a shackle. it imposes restrictions, limits his mobility, and demands sacrifice. but if there is one truth about t'challa, it is this: he will always determine his own trajectory, led by the power of his ethics. and in his wake, he strives to carve a good panther legacy worthy of the ages.
