#gobarkmode

[godogmode]

sighing longingly and yearning for a pack [again]

rambling under the cut 🐾

im so. tired. of modern human life.

the grass is always greener but I just cannot stop thinking about how life as a wild animal must be so. simple.

all you have is the day ahead of you, the next hunt, the next meal. there is no planning for next months rent. there is no chequings and savings. there is no car appointment.

there's just. you. and your pack. and the forest. and the will to survive.

simple does NOT equal easy. but god it has to be better than this.

[godogmode]

this would fix me I think -

all I want is a pack to hunt, live, and love with. that unbreakable bond through survival and strength. the familial community within the isolation of the deep forest.

i don't even know what else to write, there's more feelings there that I just can't articulate. sighhhhhh

[godogmode]

REMINDER!! - no one cares (in the good way!!)

jumping on you and licking you in the face to remind you: NO ONE CARES!!!

I have been so nervous to wear any of my gear outside my home, but I get so so sad when I have to take my collar off. yesterday, I decided to go run all my errands with my collar and guess what?? literally no one said anything about it. no one cares!!! despite what you think, no one really cares what you wear!!!

so here is your friendly reminder that

a) no one in public is paying attention to you as much as you think they are

and

b) you can do whatever you want, forever!!

that's all, ramble over!! happy pawlidays every critter

🐾🎄🐕

[godogmode]

been taking accidental naps curled up on the couch lately, got me feelin like

zzZZzzZZzz

[godogmode]

sorry what was that? I wasn't listening. i was thinking about the wolf pack™ in my head (again)

wolfy rambling under the cut raaaa 🐾

seriously it's such an odd feeling to be an alterhuman that is such a social animal??

i wish i had memories of growing up as a pup. i wish i had learned to stalk and kill and hunt as a team. i wish i had the unbreakable pack bond that includes both friends and family. I wish I could father a litter of pups, and watch and help them grow into strong, capable wolves. I wish I could lay in a sunbeam with one of my packmates while we rest and groom each other's fur after a successful hunt.

it just feels like there are pieces missing from both my past and future. but. i AM lucky enough to have the human luxury of the internet, to find folks who feel like me. to find folks who assure me that we are not alone. so maybe in a way I do have a pack :)

and also - I get to eat sweets and chocolate, go to music shows, take photos, drive around and explore without my legs being tired. maybe if I had been born a wolf I would miss these human experiences, too.

OKAY! enough rambling for today - send post

🐺🐾

[godogmode]

the dog I am VS the dog I sound like while doing vocals

[godogmode]

I feel like I see a lot of posts in therian/alterhuman communities that are along the lines of "life would be so much easier if I was born as my kintype!" and I just can't help but feel the opposite.

I want to be a wolf and I want it to be HARD. I want to wake up every morning and start the hunt for my next meal. I want to smell a strange wolf in my territory and chase them out. I want torn ears, and broken teeth. I want to search for hours in the blinding snow for a dry place to curl up and shiver through the night.

A wolf's life would NOT be easy. It would just be simpler. and let me be clear that there is nothing wrong with wanting an easy life, I just don't. I want to NEED to have drive. Purpose in survival. Even if that purpose is simply being opportunistic enough to feed myself and my pack mates for the day.

idk if this makes any sense or if I'm just rambling but whateva send post

[godogmode]

first gear post? :0

I recently made a tail for myself and it feels so so good to finally have a tail to wag!! :3 (i edited the shadow of the ears <3)

i decided to bring it for a quick trip outside with me to dance and howl at wolf moon!! 🐺🌕 here's a cool photo of my shadow :D

more wolfy ramblings under the cut-

even before I started to question my alterhumanity (aka recently) I have always always imagined myself with a tail. it makes my chest feel warm and fuzzy to see my tail in my shadow!! feels like I finally have a piece of my body language that I've been missing. but now im wishing i could wear my tail everywhereeeeee :c

I've always been able to "feel" my tail, and sometimes my ears, but for the last couple of weeks I've been able to "feel" my snout and sometimes paws? never had these types of phantom shifts before; the snout one is uncomfortable and weird tbh.

anyways. yarn tails are pretty easy and fairly affordable to make yourself!! cost me about $20 in materials and it's so softtt! i cant wait to try and make more gear (hopefully ears) in the future >:D

anyways if you read my rambling I'm wagging my tail at you :3 🐺🌕