My mother almost died from an overwhelming amount of stress, caused by constant abuse. Her body, her heart was literally giving up....y'all please get out, I know its scary gah I know it is...if my father had not kicked me out, and had my mom not forced me to leave the other abusive situation I was in, I don't know if I would have been brave enough to leave without that help....if you have help take it! If not be brave! Loves you've got this. You CAN do it. please please just leave please love yourself and go. I'm begging you.... You're worth so much more then you put yourself through by staying.
You think you deserve it, you don't. You think you can change them, you can't.
You think its love, its not.
You are afraid what they will do if you leave, be brave.
BELIEVE IN YOURSELF...I know its hard but you've got this.