i wrote a song about Perderé in the RH!AU and its cool, methinks it's called It Shows
(Verse 1)
At first when it started
I thought that it was all real
how exactly did i feel
When i never had departed
(Prechorus)
found myself in a depression
I learned it was all a sham
After you forced me into submission
Like the dog you think i am
(Chorus)
And it's not fair, i know
But theres nowhere i can go
And forever to you, i'm tied
I just wish that i had died
And you don't care, i know
I'm punished if i don't show
And you use me and abuse me
Just to order me to keep a ruse…
And it shows
(Verse 2)
I'm performing on a stage
If i fall, i'm met with rage
And it takes a while to gauge
Just how much that i can take
(Prechorus)
my feathers fall to the ground
But you tell me to go back down
And you're pulling on my tail
Like i chose to enter this jail
(Chorus)
And it's not fair, i know
But theres nowhere i can go
When they banished me, put me through strife
I wish that they'd ended my life
And you don't care, i know
I'm punished if i don't show
And i simply cannot break these chains
My wings are clipped, you have the reins…
And it shows
(Verse 3)
And this little hotel noticed
These nice ladies took me in
Gave me a place that was free from sin
I felt i could uncuff my shins
(Prechorus)
And it's funny, really now
All those years that i had bowed
I realized that you're just some
12 foot tall french piece of sentient metal that i could stab if i wanted to
(Chorus) (Emotionally)
I'll make things fair, you know
And there's nowhere you can go
As i laugh at all your cries
see the terror in your eyes
And I don't care anymore
That you called me a little whore
et je vais te tuer, espèce de salaud
et je m'assurerai qu'ils ne trouvent pas ton cadavre rouillé-!…
(Outro)
So it shows
How i was treated
Like a pet for you to beat and fight
finally it all came back to bite you
And now they all know
That you were defeated
I did it in a frenzy
From you I'm finally free
new tgo perdere lore drop and ranting abt my lil sis and the depths of her brain
also addressing this rq
i do not ship Eclin, but my little sister kinda does a little bit 😭😭 and shes the one who came up with the ideas for our fanfiction (the grand occult). she says she absolutely does not ship it romantically and i have heard her muttering in her sleep her little dialogue bits she does with her voice acting and it went a little smth like this(pretty sure this was in an episode but this sounded much more erm eh)
Eclipse: are you....scared..?~
Ruin: ..s-scared? W-well, you...could say i am a bit, eh, frightened*nervous laugh* by your appearance...erm..you...*noticeably scareder* you.....ec-Eclipse..?
Eclipse: *whispering* Are you...terrified of me..?~
and then she stopped for like two minutes before saying something that sounded so practiced she practically recited it from memory, with ruin and solar's voices on point as always(i stayed awake listening through all of this)
warning, kidnap mention and implied r@pe in the script below!! ⚠️⚠️⚠️
Sol: Ruin..?
Ru: Gh-!....Oh. Hello, Solar.
S: Hey...i, uh, just wanted to...see if you were okay. You know, with Eclipse kidnapping you and all.
R: I know. I was there. And...i'm fine. thank you.
S: ....are- are you sure..?
R: *heavy pause* *like you're boutta cry* ...no. not at all.
s: ...do you want to talk about it?
r: ...i was wondering why...why he would take me, of all people, to that awful place. i know he thinks i'm the one who rebuilt him, but i never knew... he...h-he would...*very shaky exhale*....and as it turns out, i was....i was only there for his.....pleasure. *shaky breath* god, that awful, blood-boiling, selfish prick!...i tried, Solar, i tried...my hardest, to fight back, but....i-i...i wasn't strong enough. i was too weak..to...to stop him. to do anything.
S: *realization suddenly dawns on him* you mean...h-he...? *very quiet gasp* ...OH....OH MY GOD.....Ruin, he...?
R: ...I already know what you think. i'm revolting. the fact i let him do that to me is repugnant.
S: N-no, that isn't at all what i was gonna say!- That- That is entirely not your fault, it's Eclipse's!....oh my god, it's....it's my fault too. Damn it, Moon and i should've been keeping an eye on you, we should have been protecting you in case, oh god, oh god-
R: Solar, it...it makes me feel worse when you're frustrated with yourself, please...
S: We have to tell Moon. Something that'll prove we need to pay more attention, we-
R: N-NO!-...i don't want anybody to know about this. You're not one to think less of somebody based on the things they've been forced to do, but i cannot....i cannot trust that of the others. i dont want them to think down of me, like i'm some...agh, i don't know! please, Solar.
S: But Ruin, telling someone would help you-
R: Solar.
and that was all i heard before she finally went back to sleep- so i asked her abt it the next morning and she said "Oh, that's part of Perdere's backstory now! that's why he hates Eclipses, especially Lord Myrik, because he gives off that vibe and you know why. And also why in the RHau he's terrified of Ardeo."
and so yep. That's Per now. Their Eclipse was a fucking asshole before they got the star, and now he's fucking dead. Also, Per's dimension never had a Bloodmoon (That's why he's so attached to sanguine in a stolitz kinda way)
