I have trust issues. And everyday, I deal with it. And, because trust is something being earned and not easily given, I try to build my relational skills with the people around me. I lose trust in people that hurt me or gave me disappointments or even to people that don’t show trust to me as well. And there is a burden in me that tells me to change it and that it should not be that way. That maybe, the reason I get a hard time trusting people is because it is also difficult for me to trust myself. Then, my ever loving and awesome God let me meet some special grace. And here they are. They are the people that helps me to trust more. Not only to the people around me but also to myself. When currents of confusion waves in my mind, in who to trust, they stand out. I may not see them as often as I like, but whenever I need them, they show up. They are like the stars. You don’t see them often, but you know they’re just there, looking at you and never left. I hope and pray that even in years, decades to come we will still grow, not apart but together.
Thank you Nadine and Jeff for the being God’s grace to me! You both may not be perfect. But your flaws makes me even love you more. Maybe, in the near future, you can hurt me or give me disappointments , or maybe you can show me that you can’t trust me. But, still, I will choose you over all my trust issues and other personal dilemmas. You both are way more important than any of my dramas! Hehe. Garapon and banana split!
*Sending you a big hug*