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I can’t go on dA without seeing a picture of someone’s fucking foot 

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Fate

I still remember the very first time we met each other in college years ago. The eye contact moments when i saw you, the hazel brown eyes of yours that i can’t seems to forget. But the saddest part is that you already have a boyfriend with you that time which i was pulled back for a moment. Yet, every time i see you passes by, my heart rate increase tremendously. During that time, we were not close to each others at all, is just a Hi and Bye friend. After some times, i can no longer sees you in college, i guess you already graduated then.

Years later, i was working in a mall as a part time event crew in some events because i needed some pocket money. As usual, lunch break alone roaming around the mall to find some food to eat. Suddenly, a familiar face passes by while i’m walking through the crowd. I was like stone for a moment looking at her, flashing back through my memory trying to remember who is that. Then, i finally figure out. IT WAS HERRRR!! The one that makes me fall in love in the first sight. When i finally figure out and look back, she’s gone. Literately went POFF, gone in the crowd. I try to walk back and find her, but i couldn’t seems to find her at all. My heart goes high and low for a moment, but nahh is okay. Fuk it and move on. And this is the First random time we bumped to each other.

The next day, i texted her on Facebook to clarify is it her that i saw and then our conversation goes on. That is the first day i really talk to her. Then our conversation goes on and off till my Degree life begin. I’m glad that i start off my Degree life taking the same subject with her - E. Management.  But, although we are in the same class, we rarely talked to each other. Because i was quite shy to approach her and her gang because i will get stutter when i’m shy. So whenever we see each other, i will just smile at her. That’s all. Freaking sad life ><. As time passes, i finish my first sem wonderfully because being with her is the best time ever.

The second random time we bumped to each other was when i’m having lunch with my family in the same mall i work last time as a event crew. I was enjoying my food looking outside the glass window or wall i guess. Suddenly, she appears in front of me walking pass the glass wall/ window. I was so shock that i almost spit out my food seeing her in front of me that randomly and she saw me too. So, i just smile and wave to her acting naturally but i’m happy as fuk deep inside me jumping up and down. And my mood for the whole days was sweeeeeet.

The third random time we met was the most awkward ones. I was asked to go to a club on a Friday night or Sat ones which i can’t remember. Then some how i reach earlier then my gang of friends so me and my partner where we were there early went to a Chinese food place - Wong Kok to chill first. My friend order some foods for his dinner and we sat there for quite some time to wait for my gang to come. While chilling, we talk about random stuff, GUYS talk. Then i came across the topic that the girl i felt for and stuff. Sharing my story to my friend about this and that about her, Then, when we are planing to leave because my gang finally reach the place. At this moment, while i turn around, SHE WAS SITTING JUST BEHIND ME, of MY TABLE AND LOOKING AT ME AND SHE SMILE. I WAS LIKE WTFFF IS SHE DOING HERE AGAIN THE MALL WE MET 3 TIMES IN THIS FREAKING HUGE MALL. LOL. I went totally speechless for a moment and i just smile back awkwardly.

Although we are not really close to each other yet, but i’m planing to get closer to her. Those amount of random bump into each other thing was really crazy and leave me speechless. There was one time that i actually tried to find her because i know she was going to the same mall again to get some stuff but i tell you this, it was not as easy as it look. I went to the place she planned to go and i couldn’t find her at all. Ended up going back alone with a cup of Starbucks. LOL.  FUK MY LIFE!!!! 

With those fate that we met. I really hope that we can be in a relationship ASAP because this is the final semester that i was going to be together with you. I also almost went screw up with my subject selection just to be together with you for this one last time. Because i know, if i can’t get you now, i will be the one regretting for the rest of my journey. I’m really clear of what i’m doing and going now. So please, just give me one chance. My dear God. Don’t disappoint me again. ONE CHANCE.