Sometimes I remember a certain scene or line or a piece of music from Game of Thrones, and I am suddenly flooded with all the intense emotions that accompanied me for almost a decade, and it just breaks my heart all over again. I know it's silly and that it's just a show, but it was so much more for me while it lasted. It was something I not only deeply enjoyed but shared with so many of my loved ones; the hours I'd spend recounting certain events, family trees and histories for my parents, the long discussions about theories and symbolism with my brother and friends, the endless internet scrolling and engaging with an entire world full of people talking about the same thing. Is was a phenomenal, and I got to ve a part of it. Not only that, but just the sheer beauty of the show itself - its cinematography, acting, music, special effects, storytelling and so much more... And it hurts. It still hurts. It's silly and foolish, I know I KNOW, but it broke me a little bit, it really did. And it saddens me to know that this feeling is the one that will linger with me forever.