My mind has always been one of my largest weapons, hands down. I need no match to burn myself completely to the ground. What makes some peoples’ minds so intricately webbed? So...labyrinth-like?
Within the last couple of years, I’ve taught myself how to harness my mind. Pull my thoughts in and shift them. Harness the hurricane that is my mind, really. I’ve never forgotten how I once read that such large presences are referred to in terms of being a female. Mother Earth. You never hear the ocean referred to as “he”. It’s always “she”. Nobody says, “Did you get caught in that storm? He was a big one.” I am a water sign. I wouldn’t have guessed differently if I knew better. Anyways....
Within harnessing so much of my energy, oftentimes, I have taught myself how to throw out the bad without even having to touch it. Letting it roll off of my shoulders and deflecting it away. I see it in my mind’s eye. Being around negative people drains me. It affects me, there’s no denying that. Hematite. Labradorite. I wear these things. I never looked into how being an Empath affected my life until I started looking up/figuring out how to help myself/manage my life in the most positive manner. I had known I was an Empath. I had been told since I was little. I had had several people throughout life tell me. I’m empathetic, to the point of physical ailment and mental, physical, & emotional exhaustion; as well as several other things. Might as well look into it, right? For the first time in my life, I was able to understand why I’m such a tired person (*FULL DISCLOSURE: I also have a hormonal disorder that creates an abnormal amount of fatigue for up to 2 weeks each month). No rare autoimmune disorder, syndrome, disease, ANYTHING. It’s because I’m an Empath. Figuring that out was one of the best things I did for myself. Understanding yourself and learning how to manage that introspection is beyond gratifying.
As I write all of this, I am exhausted. Lack of sleep from not being ABLE to sleep. My mind has been on overdrive due to the inner workings of my life. Biology. Moving. Saving $ to buy my own house. I need to get back to the roots of it all. Literally. The soil that grounds me. Again, literally.
