#goiky ca

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surely a good use of my free will. will this be important later? maybe not but i have sold my soul to 8-ball and 9-ball and im not getting it back

oldest to youngest = number order

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If i ever share gaty's living nightmare in my human au people have to be chill with a lot of things really quick

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thoughts on pin? specifically in regards to gijinkas depicting her with regular limbs….. (also any other thoughts welcome i love pin #mypin)

also another: thoughts about pin and how her limblessness was handled both by the fandom and in show?

YESSSS i love pin! So much! I havent fixated on her to the level i have other characters so theres probably people out there who can say more about her time in bfdia but yeah no i think the angle of her getting picked on ceaselessly and ending up disabled is very important to her overarching character. I see her growth from a confident little leader to a (rightfully) snippy person in bfdia to a kinder gentler character in bfb and tpot as the very natural growth of a teenage girl being dealt five hundred different terrible things that test her patience.

I probably have to rewatch bfdia properly to assess how well the show itself deals with her being disabled, but i think people generally do okay with gijinkas/human versions of her all things considered. I still hate robot limbs for reasons i will very much get into with my essay but the only time ive ever been slightly okay with seeing them is with pin, given she literally "gets her limbs back". I like when shes shown with mobility devices and i really like when her mech suit is just a powerchair with, like, treads. Its awesome

Personally in the strictly human sense i cant really view it as actually her losing her limbs because at the end of the day she gets them back, and that simply does not happen. Again, essay will explain, but prosthetics are not replacements for arms. Because of this i view what happened to her as a bad crash/accident that immobilizes her for a long while and causes her lots of pain (maybe chronic?). Maybe bullying from puffball gone very wrong if i had to guess? She uses a powerchair at school until she can use crutches. She's never really returned to her body before the crash, she uses a cane (she decorated it with spikes!) and shes a lot happier now that both she and everyone around her have mellowed with their bullying, though there are a lot of sore spots that haven't healed, especially with leafy...

Thanks for the ask!!!

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I’m really really really autistic about BFDI and sometimes when I see your opinions I get really physically ill. Not even in a bad way I just. Get so excited in a way it’s like my body doesn’t know how to keep up with. Anyway I was going through your special Goiky human AU and I love it so much, I love it a lot, I like the decision you chose to go in with keeping within the constraints of reality, personally for my human AU I decided to make it an isekai and think about what humans from all over the world would do in a competitive reality show world that demands they compete and stuff if they want to go home. This is just me sharing but seeing your stuff kind of wants me to do an AU of my AU where they all went to school together but I’ve placed all the characters in such different places of the globe that it becomes harder to do so. X)

I’m just rambling in your asks but I also saw that you said Pencil never read as very feminine to you and she always leaned on the masc side. My interpretation of Pencil has always been that her style slides back and forth is dependent on Match specifically, because Pencil and Match both change a lot when together that shows just how much influence they have on one another. But I’ve always seen Pencil as sort of putting herself in a box in this way. I said as a joke to my friend but I said she’s the only actual futch to exist, in comparison to Match she looks butch and in comparison to Needle she looks femme. Anyway I just wanted to hear more about your Pencil interpretation too.

I’m just talking here… I just get so excited seeing your posts and wanted to ask you more about your AU.

OHHHH thank you so much! This is such a sweet message!

Your AU sounds like so much fun! Love the game show angle and showing worldwide representation, it translates really well from the source into something familiar but with more to consider ie how they all become friends, enemies, etc. My AU just came naturally to me as a sort of "how canon compliant can I make a human AU that both 1) keeps them all together and 2) is completely realistic". No magic (mostly), no aliens, just humans making a mess of each other's lives. I love realistic drama and I think the tendency to handwave realism away for fantasy (which is fine, for the record, but i digress) undersells the kind of emotional rawness that can develop from real human relationships and problems with the world we live in as it is. Also it came naturally because the series telegraphs itself very well as a group that grows up from elementary school (BFDI) to middle school (BFDIA) to high school (BFB) and beyond (BFBFB as a group that travels up north out of state, possibly even out of country to BC because then I can write what I know best lmao; TPOT as post-grade school nightmare zone where One plays a specific role in making their lives miserable as adults). I think I've accomplished this pretty neatly making them all kids who grew up together in the same small hometown in California, and there are obviously more details to why they stay together, why so many of them are disabled, etc so maybe i'll explain it all later.

For me that's honestly a very very good take on Pencil and I think that's kind of how I see it too. I think gender expression is a lot more fluid than people make it out to be when they label certain characters through the butch-femme lens. Not that there's annhything wrong with the labels, of course! I just mean that few people are actually going to be static in how they present themselves. That being said pencil is absolutely futch LMAOOO I do admit i think needle is more fem than pencil :^) shes a lululemon(/equivalent company that isnt evil) girl. but yeah i love seeing how different people interpret the objects differently it's a lot of fun!

Thanks again for the message! I love questions and I would love to answer anything else!

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I forgot to post these BLAHHH i did more quick portraits for my au 🩷🩷🩷

first six <-

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i said i was going to tweak my human pencil design but i literally don't have it in me to change anything because she looks exactly like a high schooler forced into a fifth year of summer school

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Idk im thinking about my humans and i think there's something really compelling to me about trying to translate object designs into human designs that keep some element of what they are as yknow objects but also look like someone i couldve gone to school with. Someone you can spot flipping around a yearbook you got years and years ago and wonder how they are now, what they're like, how much theyve changed, what would have happened to both of your lives if you talked more than once.

And i mean thats the "au" of it all right? Do you think Pin ever flips through her yearbook and looks at Leafy lose some of her radiance over the years and wonder why things had to go the way they went? Doesn't her smile, originally so pure and beaming, grow more forced and strained over the years? Do you wonder if Pin looks at *herself* and wonders why things had to go the way they went?

Does Pencil reread at all the signatures she got from Freesmart in middle school? Does she, a twenty something lesbian fuck up, sit alone in her van and look at her middle school yearbook over and over again? The context is different, but isnt the torture all the same?

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I hope one of these days i can share something cohesive about my object -> human au because its been a fun thing for me to think about on and off for the past couple of months. I want it to have a lot of restraints in its realism. Ive always loved that. Like, how do you translate such a wacky series into real human life? What if theres no magic (mostly, anyway)? Well, what happens if you try to adapt it in this way? Can it still resemble itself? Can it still be creative? Can it hold all of the relationships between them as objects?

Given that the huangs themselves grew up alongside their show, i feel like the progression of the show grows really naturally with school ages, frame shifted a few years younger than the huangs themselves. Like bfdi -> elementary, bfdia -> middle school (jesus christ bfdia is SO middle school they literally try to kill leafy. 12 year old girls are always doing this), bfb -> high school, tpot -> adult life. this is where it gets interesting because a lot of this is where as adults they try and reckon with what the fuck happened to them growing up. despite them constantly clawing at each others throats they become a knotty messy group of people with both positive and toxic codependency rampant. Like a 90 person codependency pile. Its a fucking mess. All in some stupid small town in california. I even gave the au a name. "Goiky, CA".

Its fun. Maybe ill post more stuff for it as i procrastinate my essay part 2