Bronycon is coming up soon and it tends to be a time of introspection for me each year.
This year has been really big and I kinda wanna write a lot but at the same time I don’t really know if I can do the year justice but I think I’m gonna try.
This time last year I was hosting a bunch of my friends and none of the ones I was really close to are gonna be making their way over this year. Some of them I’m kinda glad they’re not, other ones I’m worried that they don’t like me, other ones I just don’t really talk to.
The past few months especially have been really tumultuous... and by the past few months I mean like 4? holy shit. It was a big breakup and I’m still kinda coping with a lot of it. Losing touch with people I once considered the closest people in my life. Trying to maybe hope that someone is actually flirting with me in an interested way and not a pity way? I dunno.
I think I have a significantly different friend group than I had at this time last year, and yet other things have kept solid. Like... last year’s horsecon was the first time I got to meet skyecandi. Now I consider her one of my closest friends and she’s done a lot for me and I’m really honored to have her as a friend. She’s really pulled me out of a bad place a few times and I really appreciate it.
Special props to yiff-haver, pardusnix, geradex and hobbsmeerkat for making my first anthrocon not a terrifying experience. I was really scared but you all are really good at making me feel like I’m nice to be around.
I certainly think I’m a different person going into this bronycon than I was last year. I think I’m better in a lot of ways. Socially, mentally, emotionally... yeah.
I’m glad to have friends. <3
