I’m back again...I’m glad to be back but also kind of not because I’m tired and I miss my new friends. That being said, I’ll make Life’s a Ditch start back up again on July 16, as I am tired, unmotivated, and unprepared
You know you’re getting better when you start having extreme anxiety over assignments and your first thought isn’t ‘I should step in front of a train so I never have to worry about stress again’ and instead it’s ‘I should drop out of uni and focus on my own things so I don’t have to worry about homework again’
either way though my chest still hurts and I don’t wanna do the work
Be warned, this is based off of a few episodes of season 1. I haven’t watched the entire show yet. BUT WHO CARES.
who’s the cuddler: Karma. She’s a more physically affectionate person by nature, not that Amy’s complaining. It made the whole “does she like me like me” situation a lot more complicated than it needed to be, but even once they start dating Amy is constantly surprised at how much Karma likes reach out and hugging her, holding her hand, running her fingers through Amy’s hair.
who makes the bed: Depends. Amy will do it if it’s bothering her, but Karma sometimes just is in the mood and cleans whatever room she’s in. She doesn’t know when the motivation will come back so when she does ever do it, it looks pretty amazing.
who wakes up first: Amy. She used to wake up to the sound of Karma calling her every morning, but now she wakes up to the feeling of Karma nuzzling into her back and frowning at the sun. It’s kind of the cutest thing.
who has the weird taste in music: Amy again. Karma’s taste is very broad, because if the song has a strong or interesting voice then she’s about it. Amy’s the one who’s into different sounds. When they do agree on an album, you know it’s good.
who is more protective. Close, but Karma. Karma knows that Amy can fend for herself, but if there was ever a situation where Amy wasn’t there or the other person wasn’t being fair, then Karma would tear them a new one. Amy is protective of them as a unite, whereas Karma is protective of Amy.
who sings in the shower: Karma. The acoustics make her sound great, plus Amy’s face after hearing her voice and then coming out of the bathroom in a towel “accidentally”? Totally worth it.
who cries during movies: Amy. Karma gets swept away as much as the next girl, but Amy is really affected. Karma wants her life to be like the movies, but Amy is perfectly content getting her rocks off by seeing it happen on screen. They both agree that whoever thought the ending to Moulin Rouge was acceptable should die in a fire.
who spends the most while out shopping: Karma. Amy is super practical about their money, but it gets to the point where she starts being anxious over it, and like, babe, we only live once. We’re not going to not eat if it means saving us twenty more dollars a week and our health is in jeopardy.
who kisses more roughly: Karma. Amy can tell how wary Karma is in the beginning so she tries to be careful. “I’m not porcelain.”
who is more dominate: Amy. Karma has an outgoing personality but Amy has a quietness about her that pulls Karma in a tight line.
my rating of the ship from 1-10: 10/10 during or post college girls need some space to live and breathe and be happy gosh
By that i mean i’m going to talk about what’s been going on the past month as well as talking about the people in my class for school.
Okay well simple things first before i start to ramble on about school cause ima do that for a while. the other night it was the high school’s first football game of the season and they totally lost it was fucking hilarious oh my god. and i was gunna stand up on the hill and not be ‘one of those seniors’ but then i saw my friend sort of rachel and i decided to sit with their family. so i got to see the pretty babes up close and ugghh they did so well during their half time performance it was great and ahh.
it was a little weird being with rachel cause we arent entirely as good of friends as we used to be? but eh.
but see here’s the thing. when me and austin did the break up it was like two months ago and we haven't talked since. and that’s part of the reason i didn’t want to go down there and see things up close cause i wanted to respect his boundaries like. no this is his time to to enjoy what ever the fuck. but at the end of it all i was holding the door open and like. it’s stupid but he went through the door i was holding and he said ‘thank you!’ all cheery and shit and i said happy birthday cause it was on the 3rd and he’s a fucking man child now 18 so. and.
i think hes doing better and that just kind of makes me happy.
other things other things.. uhh
oh! i officially decided on a day to visit NAU and that’s the 26 and 27th i think and im really excitedekhrfkbjhsbd i get to see jacki and tai and monique and tyler and kyle and aahhhh frrienndsssss. it’ll be nice to see jacki again. like its only been a month but shes so far awayyyy. so is emmy. i want to see her too. ffuucckkk.
i started up a little writing blog thingy XP its going good and im happy with it. it’s mostly just a place to put all the hetalia things and the short little drabbles i think of that i cant turn into good full fledged stories and i like it a lot.
AND LEMME TELL YOU. ABOUT THIS CUTE GIRL. OOHHH MY GOOOOD. her name is kylee and she goes by opalustre on tumblr and hoooo man is she adorable. i have the biggest fucking crush. and like. she lives in minnesota. so it’s like. it don’t fucking matter if i like her or not but i really honestly want to get to know her too? like i want to be her friend and talk to her about stuff and. yeah silly crush but god DAMN is she cute. aahhhh
me and a few family people are doing a tiny west side story dance for my grandma for her birthday in about two weeks. which should be fun. i think.
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okay so going back to the school thing cause. i wanted to talk about that cause. fuck i don’t know. it feels like the right ting to do in this moment? ah whatever.
so my teacher is gorgeous like you go girl. she has a kid and she works at a professional massage place and i like her. shes a little scatterbrained sometimes? like i don’t think she really knows how to teach kids my age but shes trying and that’s cool. she is totally willing to help and shes pretty natural with us. i’m pretty sure we get on her nerves sometimes and it’s easy to tell but she’s real and that’s really important. she apologies when she messes up and always willing to answer questions and. yeah i think she’s doing good.
some of the kids in my class are pretty chill. i fucking adore stacy okay. she’s big and black and sassy as fuck. like girl fucking boxes and that’s so cool. she tells people to shut up a lot and i like that. she’s also one of those people who doesn't dwaddle around? like she gets her shit done and she takes it seriously and that’s so nice considering I’M STUCK WITH A WHOLE BUNCH OF FUCKING HIGH SCHOOLERS AGAIN and her and a few others are like. im here to get an education fuck off. yeh
then there’s amy. and. see i knew amy in high school she was a part of brigette’s friend group if you could even call it that. they all hated each other and brought each others spirits down so much and oh my god it was such a toxic environment and i wasn’t even in it and. wow okay. but like. i never got to talk to amy? like i never spoke to her ever simply because i got brigette hate backlash and that’s understandable. but it’s like. i get to know her now without the looming friend feels. and. i’m kind of just happy that i get a chance to know her and make my own opinions of her.
shes pretty chill i think? she talks every quietly but shes just kind of excited to learn and she enjoys the class and like. she smokes weed and stuff and i’ve never been into that but eh it’s whatever floats her boat and shes just kind of spirituallyish? i don’t know philosophical? whatever words are BUT SHE MADE ME A SMOOTHIE AND IT WAS GOOD. she’s cool.
about a week ago another kid in the class admitted thinking she was cute(after making up a few excuses) and it just brought up a whole issues cause oh my fuck?? how uncomfortable?? oh my god??? teacher lady had to address that as an issue for us then. it was weird. i felt bad for amy cause she was just being sweet and shit and this kid like accidentally made her uncomfortable. ahh.
then there’s elizabeth. and like. i have no words to describe her other than frighteningly unapologetic and its fucking beautiful oh my god ima cry this girl is just so fucking powerful and she knows what she wants and shes tough and sweet and oh my god. like. i have no words. shes just great and she’s one of my favorites cause shes like fun and laughy and cute and then someone is taking when they shouldn't be and shes just yells stop talking like a fucking boss jesus christ and ahh. she’s cool. the amount of happiness i have for her just exiting is great. like shes. dslkjfghldjk ahh shes so awesome.
also i asked her for a pringle once and i was just gunna want one but then she gave me a small stack and i was so happy. cause i was just like i want one and shes like no you need more than that you cant just have one. it was really sweet.
there’s jonah and lexi who are smart and they get their shit done and i like them. like jonah is like. hes there to learn and do things and i can respect that a lot. hes the most mature out of the few guys in the class. i think..
the guys in class are weird. arik is cool. like he talks and i have to pause after like 5 minutes to ask him what he’s talking about cause it’s jumped topics seven times and i have no idea how he got to what he’s saying at that moment. jacob is alright. he talks a lot. a little on the too immature side but hes fine.
i dont really dislike any one in the class? okay that’s a lie. but like i can pinpoint who i don’t like and exactly why i don’t like them. so. i fell better about that. mirah is cool shes sassy. peachiz and ben are chill too. kelsey is a small sweetheart. as far as i know her. david i sometimes get the vibe that hes so full of shit. like i get the ‘are you faking your life’ feel from him sometimes. hes really over the top but. ah i don’t know its weird.
one of the people i have problems with is drake. this kid. never shuts the fuck up. like. i talk a lot. arik talks a lot. jacob talks a lot. kiara and mirah talk a lot. this kid. oh my fuck. he has to comment on everything?? he needs to have the last words and i just kind of sit here like?? do you need to speak. do you need to waste my oxygen. what the fuck. and like. i only get that feel sometimes. like when he talks . but. out of class i’m like he’s fine. but then i hear him and i want to staple his mouth shut.
the other is a kid named JJ. yeah it gets confusing. and the only beef i have with him is. we were working with partners, palpating deltoids and shit. and he just comes over and grabs my shoulder and like starts feeling me up. and it’s like. BRO. YOU NEED TO ASK PERMISSION FIRST DON’T JUST FUCKING TOUCH ME.
uuggghhhhhh people touching meeeee uugghhh
the other person is marissa. and the only thing that puts me off about her is. and i totally asked her this too. i asked her if she gets high everyday and she said no shes just like that, super mellow and. i can’t. i just can’t do it. shes so out of it and shes just. i can’t. fuck. like i think she’s into the class but for fucks sake i can not take this girl seriously. ever. actually sort of pissed shes the new VP even though it really doesn’t matter.
i mean like. other than that i don’t have real issues. its a little annoying being with high schoolers after being with college level kids for so long but. i’ll live.
days are fine. work is fine. someitmes i have probelms figure out what day of the week it is but. its fine. yeah. yeah its fine and i can do it. yeah.
