#goodbye susto

[nekirmum]

I realize I've been MIA for a moment or ten. I've been out of commission, much to my own dismay, if not to yours. I hope that you'll accept this rambling recollection of the past as an apology.

I guess I'm like that friend who falls of the map and then turns up again as if no time has passed, picking up right were you left off. Jeez, I really am a bit like ol' Mumrik aren't I? I see it now.

Anyway, here's me picking up where we left off.

[nerdjerkery]

Roller coaster

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[nekirmum]

The premier of the first song from the far too long-awaited Goodbye Susto album is set for this coming Saturday at 8 PM CET. Come hang out for a few minutes with us in the chat. This is kind of a big deal for me.

[nekirmum]

The first in a series of posts where I roast my BFF by recreating his teenage goth poetry, probably winning no brownie points.

[nerdjerkery]

A Christmas gift from Stella Luna. I’m stunned. Just stunned.

[naurufan999]

Its finally happening!!!! I feel like I've been waiting to hear something from this album forever 😊 There was always some fans who said the album must be really bad since it wasn't released, but now we get to hear for ourselves! I feel like this girl right now, both excited and scared 😁I don't think it can possibly be bad, it's Axel we're talking about!

[nekirmum]

Goodbye, Susto

It's difficult to describe the pain of pouring your heart into an artistic endeavor that never realizes its full potential or sees the light of day. Although it will never compare to the loss of Micke, it results in a kind of grieving process all its own. My albums are like children to me, made from my essence and experiences, the emotional equivalent of DNA and epigenetics, I imagine. Even today, it's depressing to think about. So I think about it as little as possible. Move on, make new things. However, revisiting the situations those songs detailed, if only in prose format, has brought the ache of failure and loss back to the foreground.

I do not have the masters for Goodbye Susto at my disposal. That hardly matters; I never was fond of the direction it took once control over it was stripped from me. All I have is a set of digitally mangled demo tracks to piece back together. Still, these recordings were indicative of a particular time in my life and, although I could theoretically re-record it all, it wouldn't quite capture the essence of what it was back then.

Today, I sat down and literally faced the music, so to speak. I've begun with the first song I managed to write as I emerged from a vast creative desert.

I couldn't have imagined I would feel this empowered.

[nerdjerkery]

Fingers crossed

After some convincing, Axel let me send the corrupted drive off to professionals. They say it takes about 48 hours in easy cases when they don’t need parts to fix anything. We’ll get an update sometime early next week.

If we even get half of the files recovered, it’s better than nothing.