#gouldish

[cutcasperz]

𝙿𝙸𝙿𝙿𝙰 𝙱𝙻𝙰𝙲𝙺𝚆𝙴𝙻𝙻:      “  i saw some things i wish i hadn’t.  ”

the  pinks  and  purples  of  her  designer  attire  are  identifiable  from  miles  off,     (that’s  tatum  riley  —   she  almost  died  2  years  ago.   yeah,   i  wonder  what  she’s  doing  now.)     eyes  bat  slowly,   shifting  her  vision  from  the  floor  to  the  drink  in  her  hand,   as  she  rumbles  on,   continuing  the  conversation  in  her  drunken  haze.      ❛❛    mhm.   sure.   preach  it,  sister.  .  .    ❜❜      another  sip  is  taken    —    most  expensive  from  the  bar,   &   she  doesn’t  even  like  it  that  much.      ❛❛    y’know  what?  you  can  be  a  real  negative  nancy.   was  tryin’  to  enough  this  lovely  beverage  before  you  stepped  in  with  all  that  depressin’  shit.    ❜❜

𝚂𝙴𝙰 𝙾𝙵 𝚃𝚁𝙰𝙽𝚀𝚄𝙸𝙻𝙸𝚃𝚈  𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂:    𝙰𝙲𝙲𝙴𝙿𝚃𝙸𝙽𝙶.    @gouldish.

[star1et]

“ first time for everything. ”               STARRING   @gouldish​

❝   i’ll drink to that,   pips.  ❞   her excited remark reverberated off the walls of the small apartment she was now sharing with one of her coworkers.   paper bags of fast food littered the half of the dining table that maxine hadn’t taken over and made her makeshift beauty studio.   if one didn’t pay much mind to the state of the run down apartment,    a part of it seemed rather homey.   much more lived in than any of her other residences.   this time the bed she slept in was her own,    not whoever she had to fuck to score the gig.   glossed lips curled into a bright smile as her fingers carefully swiped the flat brush across the redhead’s eyelids.    she did this often with the girls,   helped one another get their makeup done before the cameras started rolling.   this time   it felt different   because there would be no cameras.    a part of it was almost disappointing for the girl who had become a caricature made for the spotlight.    on some days   she forgot who she was meant to be   when the directors yelled cut.

❝   if you don’t go out and shake your ass a little now,   when are ya’ gonna ?   when your tits sag to your knees and ya’ can’t stay up past sunset ?  ❞   if there was one thing maxine loved as much as acting,   it was   dancing.   in both,   she enticed a crowd and made them turn heads until the whole world was looking at her.   and if the entire world wasn’t her audience then what was the point of it all ?   ❝    there,   perfect.  ❞    she handed the pastel green mirror over to the girl,   working her bottom lip anxiously.    with the back end of her makeup brush pressed to her lips,   she asked softly.   ❝    well ?   what d'ya think ?  ❞