it has been such a long time that i felt like dancing in the cold rain when in fact i never liked the cold sweeping in my naked skin. life as i knew it has been routinual and mundane and days passed by like wheels going on and on in the same route every single day, hopeful for a new adventure that will make the engines roar in anticipation.
it has been such a long time since i felt like a free bird crying its heart out into the wide horizon when in fact singing has been a piece of my heart that i truly can't get along a day without playing tunes that just sprung out of nowhere. in between daily tasks, i sing. in between the hard times, i sing. but during these past few days, weeks, months - it felt as if singing was vanishing slowly by slowly and i had to cough up a tone to sing. it did not come to me as i knew it before.
and to say it out loud at last, i was chained by the situation i was in, caught up by the tide of emotions i could not overcome, drained by the expectations that got its hold on me and tired because i wanted to be somewhere else.
when i could have just turned it all upside down, rest my weary heart, turn to the Father and try again.
- in these days that i fail so hard, grace pushes me back up and lets me see how i am made with a purpose
