#graduation update

[gaudebo]

daily affirmations: my feelings are normal. my attachments are secure. the grief does not consume me. there is no reason for my younger self to haunt the narrative. a normal amount of bad things have happened to me in life. no matter how bad things are at least i don’t have homework. my feelings are normal—

[wireweb]

IM GRADUATING HIGHSCHOOL TODAY :3 celebration time

[ttoujis]

Oh god...!!!

I'm in so much rage right now. I'm so flipped around about my graduation process and few weeks ago I was so depressed thanks to the news of not being able to graduate this coming April because of some mistake that wasn't mine. My lecturer forget to key-in the mark in the student portal for my final examination and now I'm being held back a year because they said I didn't pass or even take the class. Luckily, I still have record of me taking the classes and I fight with the college, lecturers, and even dean. Yet on 3rd March they said that the VC (someone on the higher ups) rejected my case. They have me take the class once again and yes I've been depressed just until recently I've come to accepted my condition on not being able to graduate, letting go of my job opportunity and start going to classes with the thought of not graduating just because of things that wasn't my mistake at first.

I've regained myself and think positively for my future. I've re-planned everything back with the condition and mental state of I've got to accept the current result after fighting for one whole month on my case.

Then suddenly just now the dean just called me and mentioned that they gone through my case once again with a meeting with the college higher up and said that they already submitted my marks to exam unit with the condition I need to pay for the subject. I told them "I've already paid for it..." and they ask me for a black and white prove which thank god I still kept it. I've sent it to them and out of curiosity I ask whether I can graduate this April and they say that "Yes, you may. Just need to sent us the receipt right now so this matter can be see through".

I don't know whether to feel happy and excited. But all I know I'm nervous right now thinking that all of this might be once again another false hope from the college. They crush my hope so many times with at time saying I can graduate and suddenly next day saying no I can't. I'm so afraid to even hope.