#gravecleaner

[springmyth]

Jules Rylan, from "bloodwater", gravecleaner (2020)

[text id: this is how it ends: i am wrapped in your arms and all of the burning pain in my body goes quiet]

[springmyth]

Jules Rylan, from "abandonment", gravecleaner (2020)

[text id: there is no immunity from grief no vaccine to prepare my body for this]

[springmyth]

Jules Rylan, from “thank you for loving me”, gravecleaner (2020)

[text id: when the warmth of your love is so unfamiliar that i’m almost afraid it’s so easy to run when you’ve spent your life running when destinations are muddled and grey]

[springmyth]

Jules Rylan, from “shadow ii”, gravecleaner (2020)

[text id: i’m living in my own shadow, my mother, she says that i’ve changed, i told her i’m nothing but all of the parts that she built, only now rearranged

it’s troubling, knowing no matter my figt that the shadow hangs over my head but i no longer ache for the dark i have known so i draw up the curtains instead]

[springmyth]

Jules Rylan, from “roots”, gravecleaner (2020)

[text id: if i could bury my heart in wet soil i’m sure i couldn’t guess what would grow]

[springmyth]

Jules Rylan, from “bloodwater”, gravecleaner (2020)

[text id: i had to heal in two ways, sew myself back together with time and spare molecules, a process of nature, an act of love]

[springmyth]

Jules Rylan, from “how it is to be twenty”, gravecleaner (2020)

[text id: i feel scared i will someday forget

how it is to be twenty, in this quiet place,

surrounded by so much good]

[springmyth]

Jules Rylan, from “finale”, gravecleaner (2020)

[text id: i make a mockery of death and a spectacle of survival i didn’t believe in past lives before now

i hurt loudly, i betray my body, but i stay because i promised  i could love this one more time]