I had this song on my 2nd gen ipod in college and would listen to it while studying biology in my college library.
I made it through the first episode of Season 19 and when this song started playing on the end credits, I just started sobbing.
I'm looking at my dog like, "you're a wonderful thing I couldn't even have imagined having back when Grey's Anatomy first aired!"
And (like the last post), I'm literally reeling from the fact that Life got better, but it just hurt SO MUCH more than I realized it would.
And overall its just, Im trying to process this. Like, how can moments be so devastating and you still might end up okay, if not wonderful on the otherside?
Like, if I could more consistently be grateful and put my negative feelings, worries, anxiety aside--maybe I could really be moved to having sunnier days. Does every day really have to be such a mental and emotional fight?
Maybe... but also maybe-- it's not forever going to be a fight?
Because its such a fight, it makes me feel like...life is too short to really get it right.
And I'm scared. Alone, and scared.