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[cyruspavels]

Supposed To Be Gone

Sometimes I hear your voice and it’s as if you are right there next to me.  I turn to see your face, but you are not there.  And I scare myself because that familiar tone and texture of your voice could only have come from my own mind.  You’ve been gone for so long.  To a place none of us on this Earth are allowed to find.  I wonder if you think of me, wherever you are, too.  I hope that maybe when it’s all said and done, I’ll still remember you.  I think that I pray for these things now more than ever because I am a dad.  I beg God to not let my own son miss out on the things that I never had. 

And if death comes for me before I can say goodbye. Please remember, my son, that I only lived this long to forever be by your side. 

—CYRUS PAVEL

[cyruspavels]

First backflip in a pool.

Yesterday. June 2022

[cyruspavels]

I love you more, my baby.

I remember making you touch that lady bug. You were much smaller, but I can see why you would remember such a moment so profoundly. Even then your eyes contained wonder in them, I could see it as clear as the sky. You marveled at the act of that ladybug 🐞 crawling gently over your skin.

I see you too, my love.

I see you in everything I do and I’ll never stop.

—Dad.