2016.07 .10
Girugamesh are gone, and I had the luck to attend their last live. I ordered my VIP ticket and got a good enough number. I'm happy to say I was in the 4th row of their last concert ever. First, let me give you a little history. Skip this part if you want. I first listened to girugamesh in November 2006, because my friend insisted I would 'love this band'. She was right, as almost from the beginning I realized I loved them like no other. I soon became obsessed, watching all their PVs and comments almost religiously. I went to their London concerts simultaneously in 2008, 2009 and 2011. I always hated waiting for them to come back, and in 2012 I decided to come to Japan in anticipation of their 10th anniversary. As of 2016.07.10, I have seen them 42 times. This may sound self-induldent, and perhaps it is a tax, but in this case I truly believe that 42 is the ultimate answer to life, the universe, and everything. For almost a decade now girugamesh has been my raison d'etre; they have helped me get through depression, heartbreak, and crippling grief. They'll always be a huge part of my life. On to the show... I got up at 6am because I couldn't sleep. I took a shower and hung out my washing. Then I started to get ready. I changed my clothes 3 times. I did my makeup twice, almost crying because I didn't get it right the first time. I left my home at 9:30 am and arrived at Tokyo Teleport station at 11:00. The line for goods was long already, and I waited for about 2 hours in the scorching heat. Of course I got sunburnt. Of course the memorial bags sold out before I could get one. I bought goods for myself and my friends and went to get s locker. I couldn't eat, so I bought calorie mate and forced it down. Time came to enter and I waited with everyone else. The curtain opened promptly at 17:00 and they came out. I took one look at them and wanted to cry. Actually a girl near me bawled through the entire concert. But I wanted to enjoy. I'm glad to say I had fun, and through songs like Crying Rain I wept a little. I thought I would be OK. But then the MCs started, and I felt my heart breaking. And then Nii put on that STUPID HORSE MASK and I burst into tears. You have to understand, the horse mask video was one of the first off shots I ever watched. That, plus the horse mask he wore yesterday was given to him in London by my friend - the same girl who made me listen to girugamesh. For the rest of the songs, I had fun, but I also felt sick, because I knew it was the end. I tried to give my all but actually I felt so sad. Near the end they played 'Kowareteiku Sakai' and I cried my eyes out. In the end, they played for almost 4 hours straight. Even into the end, they gave us their all, and even though it hurts right now, that is one thing I can say of them; they gave us their best until the end. I can't think of a time when they ever made me unhappy, or disappointed me. I will always be proud of them. Not only of them, but of you. Girugamesh was blessed with wonderful fans, who have felt like family through all of these years. For those of you I've met or talked to directly; it is a privilege to know you, and I consider you my friends. For others I never had the chance to meet; we are still friends. Girugamesh may be over, but my love for them will endure. I'm sure the rest of you agree that we will do our best to keep their message alive in future. Sayonara for now.